Chapter 45
Convinced as Elizabeth now was that Miss Bingley's dislike of her
had originated in jealousy, she could not help feeling how
unwelcome her appearance at Pemberley must be to her, and was
curious to know with how much civility on that lady's side the
acquaintance would now be renewed. On reaching the house, they were
shown through the hall into the saloon, whose northern aspect
rendered it delightful for summer. Its windows opening to the
ground, admitted a most refreshing view of the high woody hills
behind the house, and of the beautiful oaks and Spanish chestnuts
which were scattered over the intermediate lawn. In this house they
were received by Miss Darcy, who was sitting there with Mrs. Hurst
and Miss Bingley, and the lady with whom she lived in London.
Georgiana's reception of them was very civil, but attended with all
the embarrassment which, though proceeding from shyness and the
fear of doing wrong, would easily give to those who felt themselves
inferior the belief of her being proud and reserved. Mrs. Gardiner
and her niece, however, did her justice, and pitied her. By Mrs.
Hurst and Miss Bingley they were noticed only by a curtsey; and, on
their being seated, a pause, awkward as such pauses must always be,
succeeded for a few moments. It was first broken by Mrs. Annesley,
a genteel, agreeable-looking woman, whose endeavour to introduce
some kind of discourse proved her to be more truly well-bred than
either of the others; and between her and Mrs. Gardiner, with
occasional help from Elizabeth, the conversation was carried on.
Miss Darcy looked as if she wished for courage enough to join in
it; and sometimes did venture a short sentence when there was least
danger of its being heard. Elizabeth soon saw that she was herself
closely watched by Miss Bingley, and that she could not speak a
word, especially to Miss Darcy, without calling her attention. This
observation would not have prevented her from trying to talk to the
latter, had they not been seated at an inconvenient distance; but
she was not sorry to be spared the necessity of saying much. Her
own thoughts were employing her. She expected every moment that
some of the gentlemen would enter the room. She wished, she feared
that the master of the house might be amongst them; and whether she
wished or feared it most, she could scarcely determine. After
sitting in this manner a quarter of an hour without hearing Miss
Bingley's voice, Elizabeth was roused by receiving from her a cold
inquiry after the health of her family. She answered with equal
indifference and brevity, and the others said no more. The next
variation which their visit afforded was produced by the entrance
of the servants with cold meat, cake, and a variety of all the
entrance of servants with cold meat, cake, and a variety of all the
finest fruits in season; but this did not take place till after
many a significant look and smile from Mrs. Annesley to Miss Darcy
had been given, to remind her of her post. There was now employment
for the whole party— for though they could not all talk, they could
all eat; and the beautiful pyramids of grapes, nectarines, and
peaches soon collected them round the table. While thus engaged,
Elizabeth had a fair opportunity of deciding whether she most
feared or wished for the appearance of Mr. Darcy, by the feelings
which prevailed on his entering the room; and then, though but a
moment before she had believed her wishes to predominate, she began
to regret that he came. He had been some time with Mr. Gardiner,
who, with two or three other gentlemen from the house, was engaged
by the river, and had left him only on learning that the ladies of
the family intended a visit to Georgiana that morning. No sooner
did he appear than Elizabeth wisely resolved to be perfectly easy
and unembarrassed; a resolution the more necessary to be made, but
perhaps not the more easily kept, because she saw that the
suspicions of the whole party were awakened against them, and that
there was scarcely an eye which did not watch his behaviour when he
first came into the room. In no countenance was attentive curiosity
so strongly marked as in Miss Bingley's, in spite of the smiles
which overspread her face whenever she spoke to one of its objects;
for jealousy had not yet made her desperate, and her attentions to
Mr. Darcy were by no means over. Miss Darcy, on her brother's
entrance, exerted herself much more to talk, and Elizabeth saw that
she was anxious for his sister and herself to get acquainted, and
forwarded as much as possible, every attempt at conversation on
either side. Miss Bingley saw all this likewise; and, in the
imprudence of anger, took the first opportunity of saying, with
sneering civility:
"Pray, Miss Eliza, are not the
——shire Militia removed from Meryton? They must be a great loss to
your family."
In Darcy's presence she dared not mention Wickham's name; but
Elizabeth instantly comprehended that he was uppermost in her
thoughts; and the various recollections connected with him gave her
a moment's distress; but exerting herself vigorously to repel the
ill-natured attack, she presently answered the question in a
tolerably detached tone. While she spoke, an involuntary glance
showed her Darcy, with a heightened complexion, earnestly looking
at her, and his sister overcome with confusion, and unable to lift
up her eyes. Had Miss Bingley know what pain she was then giving
her beloved friend, she undoubtedly would have refrained from the
hint; but she had merely intended to discompose Elizabeth by
bringing forward the idea of a man to whom she believed her
partial, to make her betray a sensibility which might injure her in
Darcy's opinion, and, perhaps, to remind the latter of all the
follies and absurdities by which some part of her family were
connected with that corps. Not a syllable had ever reached her of
Miss Darcy's meditated elopement. To no creature had it been
revealed, where secrecy was possible, except to Eliza beth; and
from all Bingley's connections her brother was particularly anxious
to conceal it, from the very wish which Elizabeth had long ago
attributed to him, of their becoming hereafter her own. He had
certainly formed such a plan, and without meaning that it should
effect his endeavour to separate him from Miss Bennet, it is
probable that it might add something to his lively concern for the
welfare of his friend. Elizabeth's collected behaviour, however,
soon quieted his emotion; and as Miss Bingley, vexed and
disappointed, dared not approach nearer to Wickham, Georgiana also
recovered in time, though not enough to be able to speak any more.
Her brother, whose eye she feared to meet, scarcely recollected her
interest in the affair, and the very circumstance which had been
designed to turn his thoughts from Elizabeth seemed to have fixed
them on her more and more cheerfully. Their visit did not continue
long after the question and answer above mentioned; and while Mr.
Darcy was attending them to their carriage Miss Bingley was venting
her feelings in criticisms on Elizabeth's person, behaviour, and
dress. But Georgiana would not join her. Her brother's
recommendation was enough to ensure her favour; his judgement could
not err. And he had spoken in such terms of Elizabeth as to leave
Georgiana without the power of finding her otherwise than lovely
and amiable. When Darcy returned to the saloon, Miss Bingley could
not help repeating to him some part of what she had been saying to
his sister. "How very ill Miss Eliza Bennet looks this morning, Mr.
Darcy," she cried; "I never in my life saw anyone so much altered
as she is since the winter. She is grown so brown and coarse!
Louisa and I were agreeing that we should not have known her
again." However little Mr. Darcy might have liked such an address,
he contented himself with coolly replying that he perceived no
other alteration than her being rather tanned, no miraculous
consequence of travelling in the summer. "For my own part," she
rejoined, "I must confess that I never could see any beauty in her.
Her face is too thin; her complexion has no brilliancy; and her
features are not at all handsome. Her nose wants character— there
is nothing marked in its lines. Her teeth are tolerable, but not
out of the common way; and as for her eyes, which have sometimes
been called so fine, I could never see anything extraordinary in
them. They have a sharp, shrewish look, which I do not like at all;
and in her air altogether there is a self-sufficiency without
fashion, which is intolerable." Persuaded as Miss Bingley was that
Darcy admired Elizabeth, this was not the best method of
recommending herself; but angry people are not always wise; and in
seeing him at last look somewhat nettled, she had all the success
she expected. He was resolutely silent, however, and, from a
determination of making him speak, she continued:
"I remember, when we first knew her
in Hertfordshire, how amazed we all were to find that she was a
reputed beauty; and I particularly recollect your saying one night,
after they had been dining at Netherfield, 'She a beauty! I should as soon call her mother a
wit.' But afterwards she seemed to improve on you, and I believe
you thought her rather pretty at one time."
"Yes," replied Darcy, who could
contain himself no longer, "but that was
only when I first saw her, for it is many months since I have
considered her as one of the handsomest women of my
acquaintances."
He then went away, and Miss Bingley was left to all the
satisfaction of having forced him to say what gave no one any pain
but herself. Mrs. Gardiner and Elizabeth talked of all that had
occurred during their visit, as they returned, except what had
particularly interested them both. The look and behaviour of
everybody they had seen were discussed, except of the person who
had mostly engaged their attention. They talked of his sister, his
friends, his house, his fruit— of everything but himself; yet
Elizabeth was longing to know what Mrs. Gardiner thought of him,
and Mrs. Gardiner would have been highly gratified by her niece's
beginning the subject.