Chapter 40
Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what had happened
could no longer be overcome; and at length, resolving to suppress
every particular in which her sister was concerned, and preparing
her to be surprised, she related to her the next morning the chief
of the scene between Mr. Darcy and herself. Miss Bennet's
astonishment was soon lessened by the strong sisterly partiality
which made any admiration of Elizabeth appear perfectly natural;
and all surprise was shortly lost in other feelings. She was sorry
that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his sentiments in a manner so
little suited to recommend them; but still more was she grieved for
the unhappiness which her sister's refusal must have given him.
"His being so sure of succeeding was wrong," said she, "and
certainly ought not to have appeared; but consider how much it must
increase his disappointment!" "Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am
heartily sorry for him; but he has other feelings, which will
probably soon drive away his regard for me. You do not blame me,
however, for refusing him?" "Blame you! Oh, no." "But you blame me
for having spoken so warmly of Wickham?" "No— I do not know that
you were wrong in saying what you did."
"But you will know it, when I tell you what happened the very
next day."
She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole of its contents
as far as they concerned George Wickham. What a stroke was this for
poor Jane! who would willingly have gone through the world without
believing that so much wickedness existed in the whole race of
mankind, as was here collected in one individual. Nor was Darcy's
vindication, though grateful to her feelings, capable of consoling
her for such discovery. Most earnestly did she labour to prove the
probability of error, and seek to clear the one without involving
the other. "This will not do," said Elizabeth; "you never will be
able to make both of them good for anything. Take your choice, but
you must be satisfied with only one. There is but such a quantity
of merit between them; just enough to make one good sort of man;
and of late it has been shifting about pretty much. For my part, I
am inclined to believe it all Darcy's; but you shall do as you
choose." It was some time, however, before a smile could be
extorted from Jane. "I do not know when I have been more shocked,"
said she. "Wickham so very bad! It is almost past belief. And poor
Mr. Darcy! Dear Lizzy, only consider what he must have suffered.
Such a disappointment! and with the knowledge of your ill opinion,
too! and having to relate such a thing of his sister! It is really
too distressing. I am sure you must feel it so." "Oh! no, my regret
and compassion are all done away by seeing you so full of both. I
know you will do him such ample justice, that I am growing every
moment more unconcerned and indifferent. Your profusion makes me
saving; and if you lament over him much longer, my heart will be as
light as a feather." "Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of
goodness in his countenance! such an openness and gentleness in his
manner!" "There certainly was some great mismanagement in the
education of those two young men. One has got all the goodness, and
the other all the appearance of it."
"I never thought Mr. Darcy so
deficient in the appearance of it as you
used to do."
"And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking so decided a
dislike to him, without any reason. It is such a spur to one's
genius, such an opening for wit, to have a dislike of that kind.
One may be continually abusive without saying anything just; but
one cannot always be laughing at a man without now and then
stumbling on something witty." "Lizzy, when you first read that
letter, I am sure you could not treat the matter as you do now."
"Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable enough, I may say
unhappy. And with no one to speak to about what I felt, no Jane to
comfort me and say that I had not been so very weak and vain and
nonsensical as I knew I had! Oh! how I wanted you!"
"How unfortunate that you should
have used such very strong expressions in speaking of Wickham to
Mr. Darcy, for now they do appear wholly
undeserved."
"Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with bitterness is a
most natural consequence of the prejudices I had been encouraging.
There is one point on which I want your advice. I want to be told
whether I ought, or ought not, to make our acquaintances in general
understand Wickham's character." Miss Bennet paused a little, and
then replied, "Surely there can be no occasion for exposing him so
dreadfully. What is your opinion?" "That it ought not to be
attempted. Mr. Darcy has not authorised me to make his
communication public. On the contrary, every particular relative to
his sister was meant to be kept as much as possible to myself; and
if I endeavour to undeceive people as to the rest of his conduct,
who will believe me? The general prejudice against Mr. Darcy is so
violent, that it would be the death of half the good people in
Meryton to attempt to place him in an amiable light. I am not equal
to it. Wickham will soon be gone; and therefore it will not signify
to anyone here what he really is. Some time hence it will be all
found out, and then we may laugh at their stupidity in not knowing
it before. At present I will say nothing about it." "You are quite
right. To have his errors made public might ruin him for ever. He
is now, perhaps, sorry for what he has done, and anxious to
re-establish a character. We must not make him desperate." The
tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this conversation. She
had got rid of two of the secrets which had weighed on her for a
fortnight, and was certain of a willing listener in Jane, whenever
she might wish to talk again of either. But there was still
something lurking behind, of which prudence forbade the disclosure.
She dared not relate the other half of Mr. Darcy's letter, nor
explain to her sister how sincerely she had been valued by her
friend. Here was knowledge in which no one could partake; and she
was sensible that nothing less than a perfect understanding between
the parties could justify her in throwing off this last encumbrance
of mystery. "And then," said she, "if that very improbable event
should ever take place, I shall merely be able to tell what Bingley
may tell in a much more agreeable manner himself. The liberty of
communication cannot be mine till it has lost all its value!" She
was now, on being settled at home, at leisure to observe the real
state of her sister's spirits. Jane was not happy. She still
cherished a very tender affection for Bingley. Having never even
fancied herself in love before, her regard had all the warmth of
first attachment, and, from her age and disposition, greater
steadiness than most first attachments often boast; and so
fervently did she value his remembrance, and prefer him to every
other man, that all her good sense, and all her attention to the
feelings of her friends, were requisite to check the indulgence of
those regrets which must have been injurious to her own health and
their tranquillity.
"Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one
day, "what is your opinion now of this sad
business of Jane's? For my part, I am determined never to speak of
it again to anybody. I told my sister Phillips so the other day.
But I cannot find out that Jane saw anything of him in London.
Well, he is a very undeserving young man— and I do not suppose
there's the least chance in the world of her ever getting him now.
There is no talk of his coming to Netherfield again in the summer;
and I have inquired of everybody, too, who is likely to
know."
"I do not believe he will ever live at Netherfield any more." "Oh
well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants him to come. Though I
shall always say he used my daughter extremely ill; and if I was
her, I would not have put up with it. Well, my comfort is, I am
sure Jane will die of a broken heart; and then he will be sorry for
what he has done." But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from
any such expectation, she made no answer.
"Well, Lizzy," continued her
mother, soon afterwards, "and so the Collinses live very
comfortable, do they? Well, well, I only hope it will last. And
what sort of table do they keep? Charlotte is an excellent manager,
I dare say. If she is half as sharp as her mother, she is saving
enough. There is nothing extravagant in their housekeeping, I dare say."
"No, nothing at all."
"A great deal of good management,
depend upon it. Yes, yes.They will take
care not to outrun their income. They will
never be distressed for money. Well, much good may it do them! And
so, I suppose, they often talk of having Longbourn when your father
is dead. They look upon it as quite their own, I dare say, whenever
that happens."
"It was a subject which they could not mention before me." "No; it
would have been strange if they had; but I make no doubt they often
talk of it between themselves. Well, if they can be easy with an
estate that is not lawfully their own, so much the better. I should
be ashamed of having one that was only entailed on me."