Chapter 41
The first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. It
was the last of the regiment's stay in Meryton, and all the young
ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace. The dejection was
almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone were still able to
eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual course of their
employments. Very frequently were they reproached for this
insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose own misery was extreme, and
who could not comprehend such hard-heartedness in any of the
family. "Good Heaven! what is to become of us? What are we to do?"
would they often exclaiming the bitterness of woe. "How can you be
smiling so, Lizzy?" Their affectionate mother shared all their
grief; she remembered what she had herself endured on a similar
occasion, five-and-twenty years ago. "I am sure," said she, "I
cried for two days together when Colonel Miller's regiment went
away. I thought I should have broken my heart."
"I am sure I shall break mine," said Lydia.
"If one could but go to Brighton!" observed Mrs. Bennet. "Oh, yes!—
if one could but go to Brighton! But papa is so disagreeable." "A
little sea-bathing would set me up forever." "And my aunt Phillips
is sure it would do ME a great deal of good," added Kitty. Such
were the kind of lamentations resounding perpetually through
Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted by them; but all
sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew the justice of
Mr. Darcy's objections; and never had she been so much disposed to
pardon his interference in the views of his friend.
But the gloom of Lydia's prospect
was shortly cleared away; for she received an invitation from Mrs.
Forster, the wife of the colonel of the regiment, to accompany her
to Brighton. This invaluable friend was a very young woman, and
very lately married. A resemblance in good humour and good spirits
had recommended her and Lydia to each other, and out of their
three months' acquaintance they had been
intimate two.
The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her adoration of Mrs.
Forster, the delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the mortification of
Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly inattentive to her
sister's feelings, Lydia flew about the house in restless ecstasy,
calling for every one's congratulations, and laughing and talking
with more violence than ever; whilst the luckless Kitty continued
in the parlour repined at her fate in terms as unreasonable as her
accent was peevish.
"I cannot see why Mrs. Forster
should not ask me as well as Lydia," said
she, "Though I am not her particular
friend. I have just as much right to be asked as she has, and more
too, for I am two years older."
In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her reasonable, and Jane to
make her resigned. As for Elizabeth herself, this invitation was so
far from exciting in her the same feelings as in her mother and
Lydia, that she considered it as the death warrant of all
possibility of common sense for the latter; and detestable as such
a step must make her were it known, she could not help secretly
advising her father not to let her go. She represented to him all
the improprieties of Lydia's general behaviour, the little
advantage she could derive from the friendship of such a woman as
Mrs. Forster, and the probability of her being yet more imprudent
with such a companion at Brighton, where the temptations must be
greater than at home. He heard her attentively, and then said:
"Lydia will never be easy until she has exposed herself in some
public place or other, and we can never expect her to do it with so
little expense or inconvenience to her family as under the present
circumstances." "If you were aware," said Elizabeth, "of the very
great disadvantage to us all which must arise from the public
notice of Lydia's unguarded and imprudent manner— nay, which has
already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in
the affair." "Already arisen?" repeated Mr. Bennet. "What, has she
frightened away some of your lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do not
be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear to be connected
with a little absurdity are not worth a regret. Come, let me see
the list of pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof by Lydia's
folly." "Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such injuries to
resent. It is not of particular, but of general evils, which I am
now complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the world
must be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain
of all restraint which mark Lydia's character. Excuse me, for I
must speak plainly. If you, my dear father, will not take the
trouble of checking her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that
her present pursuits are not to be the business of her life, she
will soon be beyond the reach of amendment. Her character will be
fixed, and she will, at sixteen, be the most determined flirt that
ever made herself or her family ridiculous; a flirt, too, in the
worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction
beyond youth and a tolerable person; and, from the ignorance and
emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward off any portion of
that universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite.
In this danger Kitty also is comprehended. She will follow wherever
Lydia leads. Vain, ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrolled! Oh!
my dear father, can you suppose it possible that they will not be
censured and despised wherever they are known, and that their
sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?" Mr. Bennet saw
that her whole heart was in the subject, and affectionately taking
her hand said in reply: "Do not make yourself uneasy, my love.
Wherever you and Jane are known you must be respected and valued;
and you will not appear to less advantage for having a couple of—
or I may say, three— very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at
Longbourn if Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let her go, then.
Colonel Forster is a sensible man, and will keep her out of any
real mischief; and she is luckily too poor to be an object of prey
to anybody. At Brighton she will be of less importance even as a
common flirt than she has been here. The officers will find women
better worth their notice. Let us hope, therefore, that her being
there may teach her her own insignificance. At any rate, she cannot
grow many degrees worse, without authorising us to lock her up for
the rest of her life." With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be
content; but her own opinion continued the same, and she left him
disappointed and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to
increase her vexations by dwelling on them. She was confident of
having performed her duty, and to fret over unavoidable evils, or
augment them by anxiety, was no part of her disposition. Had Lydia
and her mother known the substance of her conference with her
father, their indignation would hardly have found expression in
their united volubility. In Lydia's imagination, a visit to
Brighton comprised ever possibility of earthly happiness. She saw,
with the creative eye of fancy, the streets of that gay
bathing-place covered with officers. She saw herself the object to
tens and to scores of them at present unknown. She saw all the
glories of the camp— its tents stretched forth in beauteous
uniformity of lines, crowded with the young and the gay, and
dazzling with scarlet; and, to complete the view, she saw herself
seated beneath a tent, tenderly flirting with at least six officers
at once. Had she known her sister sought to tear her from such
prospects and such realities as these, what would have been her
sensations? They could have been understood only by her mother, who
might have felt nearly the same. Lydia's going to Brighton was all
that consoled her for her melancholy conviction of her husband's
never intending to go there himself. But they were entirely
ignorant of what had passed; and their raptures continued, with
little intermission, to the very day of Lydia's leaving home.
Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last time. Having been
frequently in company with him since her re turn, agitation was
pretty well over; the agitations of formal partiality entirely so.
She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness which had
first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to disgust and
weary. In his present behaviour to herself, moreover, she had a
fresh source of displeasure, for the inclination he soon testified
of renewing those intentions which had marked the early part of
their acquaintance could only serve, after what had since passed,
to provoke her. She lost all concern for him in finding herself
thus selected as the object of such idle and frivolous gallantry;
and while she steadily repressed it, could not but feel the reproof
contained in his believing, that however long, and for whatever
cause, his attentions had been withdrawn, her vanity would be
gratified, and her preference secured at any time by their renewal.
On the very last day of the regiment's remaining at Meryton, he
dined, with other of the officers, at Longbourn; and so little was
Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good humour, that on his
making some inquiry as to the manner in which her time had passed
at Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam's and Mr. Darcy's
having both spent three weeks at Rosings, and asked him, if he was
acquainted with the former. He looked surprised displeased,
alarmed; but with a moment's recollection and a returning smile,
replied, that he had formerly seen him often; and, after observing
that he was a very gentlemanlike man, asked her how she had liked
him. Her answer was warmly in his favour. With an air of
indifference he soon afterwards added: "How long did you say he was
at Rosings?" "Nearly three weeks." "And you saw him frequently?"
"Yes, almost every day." "His manners are very different from his
cousin's." "Yes, very different. But I think Mr. Darcy improves
upon acquaintance." "Indeed!" cried Mr. Wickham with a look which
did not escape her. "And pray, may I ask?— " But checking himself,
he added, in a gayer tone, "Is it in address that he improves? Has
he deigned to add aught of civility to his ordinary style?— for I
dare not hope," he continued in a lower and more serious tone,
"that he is improved in essentials." "Oh, no!" said Elizabeth. "In
essentials, I believe, he is very much what he ever was." While she
spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely knowing whether to rejoice
over her words, or to distrust their meaning. There was a something
in her countenance which made him listen with an apprehensive and
anxious attention, while she added: "When I said that he improved
on acquaintance, I did not mean that his mind or his manners were
in a state of improvement, but that, from knowing him better, his
disposition was better understood." Wickham's alarm now appeared in
a heightened complexion and agitated look; for a few minuted he was
silent, till, shaking off his embarrassment, he turned to her
again, and said in the gentlest of accents:
"You, who so well know my feeling
towards Mr. Darcy, will readily comprehend how sincerely I must
rejoice that he is wise enough to assume even the appearance of what is right. His pride, in that
direction, may be of service, if not to himself, to many others,
for it must only deter him from such foul misconduct as I have
suffered by. I only fear that the sort of cautiousness to which
you, I imagine, have been alluding, is merely adopted on his visits
to his aunt, of whose good opinion and judgement he stands much in
awe. His fear of her has always operated, I know, when they were
together; and a good deal is to be imputed to his wish of
forwarding the match with Miss de Bourgh, which I am certain he has
very much at heart."
Elizabeth could not repress a smile
at this, but she answered only by a slight inclination of the head.
She saw that he wanted to engage her on the old subject of his
grievances, and she was in no humour to indulge him. The rest of
the evening passed with the appearance, on
his side, of usual cheerfulness, but with no further attempt to
distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted at last with mutual
civility, and possibly a mutual desire of never meeting
again.
When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs. Forster to
Meryton, from whence they were to set out early the next morning.
The separation between her and her family was rather noisy than
pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but she did weep
from vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse in her good wishes
for the felicity of her daughter, and impressive in her injunctions
that she should not miss the opportunity of enjoying herself as
much as possible— advice which there was every reason to believe
would be well attended to; and in the clamorous happiness of Lydia
herself in bidding farewell, the more gentle adieux of her sisters
were uttered without being heard.