Chapter 44
Elizabeth had settled it that Mr. Darcy would bring his sister to
visit her the very day after her reaching Pemberley; and was
consequently resolved not to be out of sight of the inn the whole
of that morning. But her conclusion was false; for on the very
morning after their arrival at Lambton, these visitors came. They
had been walking about the place with some of their new friends,
and were just returning to the inn to dress themselves for dining
with the same family, when the sound of a carriage drew them to a
window, and they saw a gentleman and a lady in a curricle driving
up the street. Elizabeth immediately recognizing the livery,
guessed what it meant, and imparted no small degree of her surprise
to her relations by acquainting them with the honour which she
expected. Her uncle and aunt were all amazement; and the
embarrassment of her manner as she spoke, joined to the
circumstance itself, and many of the circumstances of the preceding
day, opened to them a new idea on the business. Nothing had ever
suggested it before, but they felt that there was no other way of
accounting for such attentions from such a quarter than by
supposing a partiality for their niece. While these newly-born
notions were passing in their heads, the perturbation of
Elizabeth's feelings was at every moment increasing. She was quite
amazed at her own discomposure; but amongst other causes of
disquiet, she dreaded lest the partiality of the brother should
have said too much in her favour; and, more than commonly anxious
to please, she naturally suspected that every power of pleasing
would fail her. She retreated from the window, fearful of being
seen; and as she walked up and down the room, endeavouring to
compose herself, saw such looks of inquiring surprise in her uncle
and aunt as made everything worse. Miss Darcy and her brother
appeared, and this formidable introduction took place. With
astonishment did Elizabeth see that her new acquaintance was at
least as much embarrassed as herself. Since her being at Lambton,
she had heard that Miss Darcy was exceedingly proud; but the
observation of a very few minutes convinced her that she was only
exceedingly shy. She found it difficult to obtain even a word from
her beyond a monosyllable. Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger
scale than Elizabeth; and, though little more than sixteen, her
figure was formed, and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was
less handsome than her brother; but there was sense and good humour
in her face, and her manners were perfectly unassuming and gentle.
Elizabeth, who had expected to find in her as acute and
unembarrassed an observer as ever Mr. Darcy had been, was much
relieved by discerning such different feelings. They had not long
been together before Mr. Darcy told her that Bingley was also
coming to wait on her; and she had barely time to express her
satisfaction, and prepare for such a visitor, when Bingley's quick
step was heard on the stairs, and in a moment he entered the room.
All Elizabeth's anger against him had been long done away; but had
she still felt any, it could hardly have stood its ground against
the unaffected cordiality with which he expressed himself on seeing
her again. He inquired in a friendly, though general way, after her
family, and looked and spoke with the same good-humoured ease that
he had ever done. To Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner he was scarcely a less
interesting personage than to herself. They had long wished to see
him. The whole party before them, indeed, excited a lively
attention. The suspicions which had just arisen of Mr. Darcy and
their niece directed their observation towards each with an earnest
though guarded inquiry; and they soon drew from those inquiries the
full conviction that one of them at least knew what it was to love.
Of the lady's sensations they remained a little in doubt; but that
the gentleman was overflowing with admiration was evident enough.
Elizabeth, on her side, had much to do. She wanted to ascertain the
feelings of each of her visitors; she wanted to compose her own,
and to make herself agreeable to all; and in the latter object,
where she feared most to fail, she was most sure of success, for
those to whom she endeavoured to give pleasure were prepossessed in
her favour. Bingley was ready, Georgiana was eager, and Darcy
determined, to be pleased. In seeing Bingley, her thoughts
naturally flew to her sister; and, oh! how ardently did she long to
know whether any of his were directed in a like manner. Sometimes
she could fancy that he talked less than on former occasions, and
once or twice pleased herself with the notion that, as he looked at
her, he was trying to trace a resemblance. But, though this might
be imaginary, she could not be deceived as to his behaviour to Miss
Darcy, who had been set up as a rival to Jane. No look appeared on
either side that spoke particular regard. Nothing occurred between
them that could justify the hopes of his sister. On this point she
was soon satisfied; and two or three little circumstances occurred
ere they parted, which, in her anxious interpretation, denoted a
recollection of Jane not untinctured by tenderness, and a wish of
saying more that might lead to the mention of her, had he dared. He
observed to her, at a moment when the others were talking together,
and in a tone which had something of real regret, that it "was a
very long time since he had had the pleasure of seeing her"; and,
before she could reply, he added, "It is above eight months. We
have not met since the 26th of November, when we were all dancing
together at Netherfield."
Elizabeth was pleased to find his
memory so exact; and he afterwards took occasion to ask her, when
unattended to by any of the rest, whether all her sisters were at Longbourn. There was not
much in the question, nor in the preceding remark; but there was a
look and a manner which gave them meaning.
It was not often that she could turn her eyes on Mr. Darcy himself;
but, whenever she did catch a glimpse, she saw an expression of
general complaisance, and in all that he said she heard an accent
so removed from hauteur or disdain of his companions, as convinced
her that the improvement of manners which she had yesterday
witnessed however temporary its existence might prove, had at least
outlived one day. When she saw him thus seeking the acquaintance
and courting the good opinion of people with whom any intercourse a
few months ago would have been a disgrace— when she saw him thus
civil, not only to herself, but to the very relations whom he had
openly disdained, and recollected their last lively scene in
Hunsford Parsonage— the difference, the change was so great, and
struck so forcibly on her mind, that she could hardly restrain her
astonishment from being visible. Never, even in the company of his
dear friends at Netherfield, or his dignified relations at Rosings,
had she seen him so desirous to please, so free from
self-consequence or unbending reserve, as now, when no importance
could result from the success of his endeavours, and when even the
acquaintance of those to whom his attentions were addressed would
draw down the ridicule and censure of the ladies both of
Netherfield as Rosings.
Their visitors stayed with them
above half-an-hour; and when they arose to depart, Mr. Darcy called
on his sister to join him in expressing their wish of seeing Mr.
and Mrs. Gardiner, and Miss Bennet, to dinner at Pemberley, before
they left the country. Miss Darcy, though with a diffidence which
marked her little in the habit of giving invitations, readily
obeyed. Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece, desirous of knowing how
she, whom the invitation most concerned,
felt disposed as to its acceptance, but Elizabeth had turned away
her head. Presuming however, that this studied avoidance spoke
rather a momentary embarrassment than any dislike of the proposal,
and seeing in her husband, who was fond or society, a perfect
willingness to accept it, she ventured to engage for her
attendance, and the day after the next was fixed on.
Bingley expressed great pleasure in the certainty of seeing
Elizabeth again, having still a great deal to say to her, and many
inquiries to make after all their Hertfordshire friends. Elizabeth,
construing all this into a wish of hearing her speak of her sister,
was pleased, and on this account, as well as some others, found
herself, when their visitors left them, capable of considering the
last half-hour with some satisfaction, though while it was passing,
the enjoyment of it had been little. Eager to be alone, and fearful
of inquiries or hints from her uncle and aunt, she stayed with them
only long enough to hear their favourable opinion of Bingley, and
then hurried away to dress. But she had no reason to fear Mr. and
Mrs. Gardiner's curiosity; it was not their wish to force her
communication. It was evident that she was much better acquainted
with Mr. Darcy than they had before any idea of; it was evident
that he was very much in love with her. They saw much to interest,
but nothing to justify inquiry. Of Mr. Darcy it was now a matter of
anxiety to think well; and, as far as their acquaintance reached,
there was no fault to find. They could not be untouched by his
politeness; and had they drawn his character from their own
feelings and his servant's report, without any reference to any
other account, the circle in Hertfordshire to which he was known
would not have recognized it for Mr. Darcy. There was now an
interest, however, in believing the housekeeper; and they soon
became sensible that the authority of a servant who had known him
since he was four years old, and whose own manners indicated
respectability, was not to be hastily rejected. Neither had
anything occurred in the intelligence of their Lambton friends that
could materially lessen its weight. They had nothing to accuse him
of but pride; pride he probably had, and if not, it would certainly
be imputed by the inhabitants of a small market-town where the
family did not visit. It was acknowledged, however, that he was a
liberal man, and did much good among the poor. With respect to
Wickham, the travellers soon found that he was not held there in
much estimation; for though the chief of his concerns with the son
of his patron were imperfectly understood, it was yet a well-known
fact that, on his quitting Derbyshire, he had left many debts
behind him, which Mr. Darcy afterwards discharged. As for
Elizabeth, her thoughts were at Pemberley this evening more than
the last; and the evening, though as it passed it seemed long, was
not long enough to determine her feelings towards ONE in that
mansion; and she lay awake two whole hours endeavouring to make
them out. She certainly did not hate him. No; hatred had vanished
long ago, and she had almost as long been ashamed of ever feeling a
dislike against him, that could be so called. The respect created
by the conviction of his valuable qualities, though at first
unwillingly admitted, had for some time ceased to be repugnant to
her feeling; and it was now heightened into somewhat of a
friendlier nature, by the testimony so highly in his favour, and
bringing forward his disposition in so amiable a light, which
yesterday had produced. But above all, above respect and esteem,
there was a motive within her of goodwill which could not be
overlooked. It was gratitude; gratitude, not merely for having once
loved her, but for loving her still well enough to forgive all the
petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and all the
unjust accusations accompanying her rejection. He who, she had been
persuaded, would avoid her as his greatest enemy, seemed, on this
accidental meeting, most eager to preserve the acquaintance, and
without any indelicate display of regard, or any peculiarity of
manner, where their two selves only were concerned, was soliciting
the good opinion of her friends, and bent on making her known to
his sister. Such a change in a man of so much pride exciting not
only astonishment but gratitude— for to love, ardent love, it must
be attributed; and as such its impression on her was of a sort to
be encouraged, as by no means unpleasing, though it could not be
exactly defined. She respected, she esteemed, he was grateful to
him, she felt a real interest in his welfare; and she only wanted
to know how far she wished that welfare to depend upon herself, and
how far it would be for the happiness of both that she should
employ the power, which her fancy told her she still possessed, of
bringing on her the renewal of his addresses. It had been settled
in the evening between the aunt and the niece, that such a striking
civility as Miss Darcy's in coming to see them on the very day of
her arrival at Pemberley, for she had reached it only to a late
breakfast, ought to be imitated, though it could not be equalled,
by some exertion of politeness on their side; and, consequently,
that it would be highly expedient to wait on her at Pemberley the
following morning. They were, therefore, to go. Elizabeth was
pleased; though when she asked herself the reason, she had very
little to say in reply. Mr. Gardiner left them soon after
breakfast. The fishing scheme had been renewed the day before, and
a positive engagement made of his meeting some of the gentlemen at
Pemberley before noon.