16
The drab storage
basement where the band is allowedto practise at night. No windows.
High ceiling with exposed pipes. Smoking is prohibited here because
of the poor ventilation. As the night draws to a close, the formal
practice has ended and the musicians are jamming. There are ten of
them altogether. Two are women: the pianist at the keyboard and the
soprano-sax player, who is sitting this one out.
Backed up by electric piano, acoustic bass,
and drums, Takahashi is playing a long trombone solo. Sonny
Rollins's "Sonnymoon for Two," a mid-tempo blues. His performance
is not bad, marked less by technique than by his almost
conversational phrasing. Perhaps it is a reflection of his
personality. Eyes closed, he immerses himself in the music. The
tenor sax, alto sax, and trumpet throw in simple riffs every now
and then. Those not playing are drinking coffee from a thermos jug,
checking their sheet music, or working on their instruments as they
listen. Some call out now and then to urge Takahashi on during the
pauses in his solo.
Enclosed in bare walls, the music is loud;
the drummer plays almost entirely with brushes. A long plank and
tubular chairs comprise a makeshift table, on top of which are
scattered take-out pizza boxes, the thermos jug of coffee, paper
cups, sheet music, a small tape recorder, and saxophone reeds. The
heating here is almost nonexistent. People play in coats and
jackets. Some band members sitting out have donned scarves and
gloves. It is a bizarre scene. Takahashi's long solo ends, the bass
takes a chorus, and the four horns join in for the final
theme.
When the tune ends, they take a ten-minute
break. Everyone seems tired after the long night of practice, and
there is less chatting than usual. As they prepare for the next
tune, one musician stretches, another takes a hot drink, another
nibbles some kind of cookie, a couple go out for a smoke. Only the
pianist, a girl with long hair, stays with her instrument during
the break, trying out new chord progressions. Takahashi sits in a
tubular chair, organises his sheet music, dismantles his trombone,
spills the accumulated saliva on the floor, gives the instrument a
quick wipe-down, and begins putting it into its case. He is
obviously not planning to participate in the next jam.
The tall young bass player comes over and
taps him on the shoulder. "That was a great solo, Takahashi. It had
real feeling."
"Thanks," he says.
The long-haired young man who was playing the
trumpet asks him, "Are you calling it a night,
Takahashi?"
"Yeah, I've got something to do," he says.
"Sorry I can't help with the clean-up."
The Shirakawa house
kitchen. On the TV, a beepsignals the hour and the NHK news begins.
The announcer stares straight into the camera, dutifully reading
the news. Shirakawa sits at the table in the dining area, watching
the television at low volume. The sound is barely audible.
Shirakawa has loosened his tie and is leaning back in his chair,
his shirtsleeves rolled up to the elbows. The yogurt container is
empty. He has no special desire to see the news. Nothing is likely
to arouse his interest. He knows that. He just can't sleep.
On the table, he opens and closes his right
hand slowly. This is no ordinary pain he is feeling: it is a pain
with memories. He takes a green-labelled Perrier bottle from the
refrigerator and uses it to cool the back of his hand. Then he
twists off the cap, pours himself a glass of water, and drinks it.
He takes off his glasses and massages himself intently around the
eyes. Still he feels no sign of sleepiness. His body is clearly
suffering from exhaustion, but something in his head is preventing
him from sleeping. Something is bothering him, and he can't seem to
get rid of it. He gives up, puts his glasses back on, and turns to
the TV screen. The steel export dumping problem. Government
measures to rectify the drastic rise of the yen. A mother who
killed herself and her two children. She doused her car with petrol
and lit it. A shot of the blackened hulk of the car, still smoking.
Time for the Christmas retail wars to begin.
The night is nearly over, but for him the
night will not end so easily. Soon his family will be getting up.
He wants to be asleep by then for sure.
Aroom in the Hotel
Alphaville. Mari is sunk deep ina chair, napping. Her feet, in
white socks, rest on a low glass table. In sleep, she wears a look
of relief. Her thick book lies face down on the table, spread open
at the halfway point. The ceiling lights are on. The brightness of
the room is apparently of no concern to Mari. The TV is switched
off and silent. The bed is made. The only sound is the monotonous
hum of the heater on the ceiling.
Eri Asai's
room.
Eri Asai is back on this side now. She is sleeping in her own bed in her
own room again. Face turned towards the ceiling, she lies utterly
still. Even her breathing is inaudible. This is the same view we
had the first time we entered this room. Heavy silence, sleep of
frightening density. Waveless, mirrorlike surface of the waters of
thought. She floats there face up. We can find no hint of disorder
in the room. The TV screen is cold and dead, like the far side of
the moon again. Could she have succeeded in escaping from that
enigmatic room? Could a door have opened for her somehow?
No one answers our questions. Our question
marks are sucked, unresisting, into the final darkness and
uncompromising silence of the night. All we know for sure is that
Eri Asai has come back to her own bed in this room. As far as our
eyes can tell, she has managed safely to return to this side, her
outlines intact. She must have succeeded in escaping through a door
at the last moment. Or perhaps she was able to discover a different
exit.
In any case it appears that the strange
sequence of events that occurred in this room during the night has
ended once and for all. A cycle has been completed, all
disturbances have been resolved, perplexities have been concealed,
and things have returned to their original state. Around us, cause
and effect join hands, and synthesis and division maintain their
equilibrium. Everything, finally, unfolded in a place resembling a
deep, inaccessible fissure. Such places open secret entries into
darkness in the interval between midnight and the time the sky
grows light. None of our principles has any effect there. No one
can predict when or where such abysses will swallow people, or when
or where they will spit them out.
Free of all confusion, Eri now sleeps
decorously in her bed. Her black hair fans out on her pillow in
elegant, wordless significance. We can sense the approach of dawn.
The deepest darkness of the night has now passed.
But is this actually true?
Inside the 7-Eleven.
Trombone case hanging from his shoulder, Takahashi is choosing food
with a deadly serious look in his eye. He will be going back to
hisapartment to sleep but will need something to eat when he wakes
up. He is the only customer in the store. Shikao Suga's "Bomb
Juice" is playing from the ceiling speakers. Takahashi picks up a
tuna sandwich packed in plastic and a carton of milk. He compares
the expiry date on this carton with those on other cartons. Milk is
a food of great significance in his life. He cannot ignore the
slightest detail where milk is concerned.
At this very instant, a cellphone on the
cheese shelf begins to ring. This is the phone that Shirakawa left
there shortly before. Takahashi scowls and stares at it
suspiciously. Who could possibly have left a cellphone in a place
like this? He glances towards the cash register, but there is no
sign of the assistant. The phone keeps ringing. Takahashi finally
takes the small silver phone in his hand and presses the talk
button.
"Hello?"
"You'll never get away," a man's voice says
instantly. "You will never get away. No matter how far you run,
we're going to get you."
The voice is flat, as though the man is
reading a printed text. No emotion comes through. Takahashi, of
course, has absolutely no idea what he is talking about.
"Hey, wait a minute," Takahashi says, his
voice louder than before. But his words seem not to reach the man
at the other end, who goes on talking in those same unaccented
tones as though leaving a message on voicemail.
"We're going to tap you on the shoulder some
day. We know what you look like."
"What the hell…"
"If somebody taps you on the shoulder
somewhere some day, it's us," the man says.
Takahashi has no idea what he should say in
response to this. He keeps silent. Having been left in a
refrigerator case for a while, the phone feels uncomfortably cold
in his hand.
"You might forget what you did, but we will
never forget."
"Hey, I don't know what's going on here, but
I'm telling you you've got the wrong guy," Takahashi
says.
"You'll never get away."
The connection is cut. The circuit goes dead.
The final message lies abandoned on a deserted beach. Takahashi
stares at the cellphone in his hand. He has no idea who the man's
"we" are or who was meant to receive the call, but the sound of the
voice remains in his ear—the one with the deformed earlobe—like an
absurd curse that leaves a bad aftertaste. He has a smooth, cold
feeling in his hand, as if he has just grabbed a snake.
Somebody, for some reason, is being chased by
a number of people, Takahashi imagines. Judging from the man's
declarative tone, that somebody will probably never get away. Some
time, somewhere, when he is least expecting it, someone is going to
tap him on the shoulder. What will happen after that?
In any case, it has
nothing to do with me, Takahashi tells himself. This is one of
many violent, bloody acts being performed in secret on the hidden
side of the city—things from another world that come in on another
circuit. I'm just an innocent passer-by. All I
did was pick up a cell phone ringing on a
convenience-store shelf out of kindness. I
figured somebody called because he was trying to track down his lost cellphone.
He closes the phone and puts it back where he
found it, next to a box of Camembert cheese wedges. Better not have anything to do
with this cellphone any more. Better get
out of here as fast as I can. Better get as far away from
that dangerous circuit as I can. He hurries
over to the cash desh, grabs a fistful of change from his pocket,
and pays for his sandwich and milk.
Takahashi alone on a
park bench. The little park withthe cats. No one else around. Two
swings side by side, withered leaves covering the ground. Moon up
in the sky. He takes his own cellphone from his coat pocket and
punches in a number.
The Alphaville room where Mari is. The phone
rings. She wakes at the fourth or fifth ring and looks at her watch
with a frown. She stands up and takes the receiver.
"Hello," Mari says, her voice
uncertain.
"Hi, it's me. Were you sleeping?"
"A little," Mari says. She covers the
mouthpiece and clears her throat. "It's okay. I was just napping in
a chair."
"Wanna go for breakfast? At that restaurant I
told you about with the great omelettes? I'm pretty sure they have
other good stuff, too."
"Practice over?" Mari asks, but she hardly
recognises her own voice. I am me and not
me.
"It sure is. And I'm starved. How about
you?"
"Not really, tell you the truth. I feel more
like going home."
"That's okay, too. I'll walk you to the
station. I think the trains have started running."
"I'm sure I can walk from here to the station
by myself," Mari says.
"I'd like to talk to you some more if
possible. Let's talk on the way to the station. If you don't
mind."
"No, I don't mind."
"I'll be there in ten minutes.
Okay?"
"Okay," Mari says.
Takahashi cuts the connection, folds his
phone, and puts it in his pocket. He gets up from the park bench,
takes one big stretch, and looks up at the sky. Still dark. The
same crescent moon is floating there. Strange that, viewed from one
spot in the pre-dawn city, such a big solid object could be hanging
there free of charge.
"You'll never get away," Takahashi says aloud
while looking at the crescent moon.
The enigmatic ring of those words will remain
inside Takahashi as a kind of metaphor. "You'll never get away …
You might forget what you did, but we will never forget," the man
on the phone said. The more Takahashi thinks about their meaning,
the more it seems to him that the words were intended not for
someone else but for him—directly, personally. Maybe it was no
accident. Maybe the cellphone was lurking on that conveniencestore
shelf, waiting specifically for him to pass by. "We," Takahashi thinks. Who could
this "we" possibly be? And what will "we" never
forget?
Takahashi slings his instrument case and his
tote bag over his shoulder and starts walking towards the
Alphaville at a leisurely pace. As he walks, he rubs the whiskers
that have begun to sprout on his cheeks. The final darkness of the
night envelops the city like a thin skin. Garbage trucks begin to
appear on the streets. As they collect their loads and move on,
people who have spent the night in various parts of the city begin
to take their place, walking towards underground stations, intent
upon catching those first trains that will take them out to the
suburbs, like schools of fish swimming upstream. People who have
finally finished the work they must do all night, young people who
are tired from playing all night: whatever the differences in their
situations, both types are equally reticent. Even the young couple
who stop at a drink vending machine, tightly pressed against each
other, have no more words for each other. Instead, what they
soundlessly share is the lingering warmth of their
bodies.
The new day is almost here, but the old one
is still dragging its heavy skirts. Just as ocean water and river
water struggle against each other at a river mouth, the old time
and the new time clash and blend. Takahashi is unable to tell for
sure which side—which world— contains his centre of gravity.