Chapter 67
10 years AC
‘LeMan 49/25a’ - ClarenCo Gas Rig Complex,
North Sea
Valérie Latoc’s jaw set in quiet
deliberation for a moment. Finally he looked up across the table at
everyone who had crowded into the mess to hear his judgment.
‘God has not given me guidance on this,’ he said
caressing the bandaging wrapped around his right hand. Dark brown
smudges of blood still showed through the layers of cotton and
lint. Beneath the wadding his hand ached dreadfully.
He’d been incredibly lucky . . . blessed
even. Jennifer’s shot had been poorly aimed, kicking to one side as
she’d pulled the trigger. Some of the pellets from the round had
caught the hand he’d raised to protect his face. He’d lost his
little finger, and the top half of the next finger along. The rest
of the shotgun’s pellets had whistled harmlessly past, rattling off
the compression chamber’s far wall.
‘You should decide what is in your hearts,’ he told
them. ‘And let that guide your decision,’ he added sombrely.
There was a silence for only the briefest moment,
then Alice Harton broke it. ‘They should both be tossed over the
side! She’s a fucking psycho. She’s bloody well dangerous. And
Walter . . . he’s . . . he’s scum!’
Murmurs of approval from those standing behind
her.
‘Jennifer is a very distressed person,’ said
Valérie. ‘And it is understandable. Surely it is also
forgivable?’
‘She went at you with a gun!’ shouted someone at
the back of the room.
‘She shot you!’ added Alice.
‘Yet here I am alive and well. And that is as God
wills it.’
‘Praise be,’ someone gasped.
‘The Koran and the Bible teach us that forgiveness
is what brings us closer to God.’
He gazed at their faces, wary that someone,
somewhere, might just ask him to cite a passage from either. He
knew a little of both books; he’d certainly had time enough to read
them both in Prison D’Arlon. He could manage well enough with a
street-corner debate . . . certainly not enough to fool a
theological scholar, though. Mind you, it never ceased to amaze him
how little those of faith seemed to actually know of their books.
It was easy enough to invent theological-sounding passages,
provided you used the right language. Most people presumed you were
quoting something too obscure for them to recognise. It was more
than his knowing a little scripture that made people listen to him,
though. It was the confidence of utter conviction that he carried.
He hadn’t trained as a priest or a pastor, he had not studied as an
imam. What he had was a far higher authority than that. What he had
was the authority of a prophet.
God had picked him . . . despite his
weaknesses; God had never judged him on that. In fact,
Valérie realised, it was his weaknesses, the temptations of the
flesh that goaded and teased and tempted him when his mind was
still, that made him so perfectly suitable.
I am the lowest of the low. And yet, even in me,
God has seen redemption.
Natasha.
Yes. God has forgiven me that moment of
weakness. He really has.
He’d dreamt of her last night. Smiling beautifully,
sitting at the Lord’s side like a wonderful angel. And Hannah sat
on the other side.
You have been forgiven, Valérie, God had told
him. They understand now that what you did was done in
love.
The girl’s scream . . . that one scream he
thought would bring dozens of people running inside and up the
steps to his rooms - he’d smothered that scream so quickly with a
cushion. And he’d prayed aloud for her soul as her small arms and
legs thrashed beneath his weight, beating pitifully at his hands.
He’d shed tears for her as the thrashing eased off; shed tears as
he pulled the cushion away and saw her still face, lips already
turning blue.
I am so sorry, he’d sobbed. Please
forgive me. I am weak.
The mess was noisy with voices discussing the
matter, shrill voices talking over each other with increasing
volume.
‘—after what he did?’
‘—dirty bastard should go over.’
Dr Gupta cut in loudly. ‘We don’t know he did
anything to Natasha! We found a shoe. That is all!’
She was shouted down by a wall of angry voices.
Valérie raised his hands. ‘Let the doctor speak!’
Tami Gupta nodded gratefully at him. She had the
floor, the room was quiet. ‘We found a shoe on his boat. That is
all. A shoe. And that is all we have. And we are happy to
see him dead because of just that? When you think of all he has
done for us, that he has been amongst us for years and nothing like
this ever happened—’
‘There’s always a first time!’ someone shouted
out.
‘Yes . . . yes, but not Walter. I know it’s not
Walter.’
‘How do we know it’s not his first time anyway?’
asked Alice. ‘How do we know he wasn’t a paedo before the crash?
How do we know if he was ever convicted? Was on a sex offender’s
register? Huh?’
Tami shook her head. ‘We do not know. But then, we
know nothing really about each other’s lives before the crash, do
we? Right? Only what people say about themselves.’ She looked
around. ‘I am sure there are many more secrets in this room -
things we did before the crash, things we did during the crash -
that we feel shame for. That we keep to ourselves.’
She looked at Valérie. ‘Even you, Mr Latoc. You
could be anyone; have done anything and we do not know.’
Valérie smiled. ‘And perhaps that is why this world
is a new beginning. We have left our old selves behind and start
with a clean slate.’
Tami nodded. ‘Yes. So . . .’ she looked at Alice,
‘so we should only judge Walter on the person we know—’
‘And we are. You’ve seen how he was with Hannah. He
was all over her, the dirty pervert!’
Tami slapped her hand down on the table next to
her. ‘How dare you!’ she all but screamed. ‘How bloody dare you!’
Her shrill voice bounced off the hard low ceiling. ‘She was like
his own, like his own flesh and blood. It was never like that . . .
like you say!’
‘But he was always in their rooms,’ replied Alice,
‘wasn’t he? Always hanging around them, always poking his nose
in.’
Heads nodded either side of her.
Tami shook her head. ‘He was as good as a
grandfather to her. I know you do not like him but I know he is a
good man.’
‘Oh, yeah!’ Alice snorted sarcastically. ‘Just like
a scout leader, or an outreach worker. A good man until you go and
find all the filth on their computer. That’s how it usually—’
‘Alice!’ Tami snapped. She shook her head. ‘You
have a dirty, poisonous mind! I know why he was with the
Sutherlands so much.’
‘Why?’
‘He is in love with Jenny.’
That silenced Alice for a moment.
‘He loves her,’ she continued. ‘He . . . he
worships her. That is why!’
‘And that’s exactly how manipulative people like
him can be,’ said Alice. ‘Work through the mother to get to the
child.’
Tami’s face creased with exasperation. ‘Why, Alice?
Why do you hate him so much?’
‘I just know men, Tami. You don’t mix old
men like Walter with young girls!’
‘But he has never done anything like this.
How can you say he did things to Hannah or Natasha!’
‘Oh come on, you’ve seen him with Hannah. Carrying
her, holding her . . . it’s not right, it’s not
appropriate!’
‘It is not appropriate to hold a child?’ Tami
looked incredulously at her. ‘Not appropriate to hug a
child? Where my family come from . . .’ she paused a moment, ‘where
my family came from, it was natural for all the family, the aunties
and the uncles, the cousins, everyone, to cherish the children, to
show them love, to hold them.’
‘Well that’s your fucking country!’ shouted
someone from the back.
Tami lowered her eyes, infuriated. ‘My country? My
country!’ She sighed, looking defeated. ‘Yes, you’re right, that’s
how it was in my country. But in my country, a good man like Walter
would have been respected. He would be treated much better than
this.’
‘Oh,’ Alice tutted. ‘And that would probably
explain a lot about your country.’
Valérie let them carry on, amused at how venomous
some of them seemed to be regarding the old man. He almost felt
sorry for Walter. The poor old fool’s biggest crime was looking too
much the part; old and ugly. Wasn’t that how people liked their
perverts to look? It made it so much easier to tear them to
pieces.
Valérie could see his women were unanimous in
wanting an example made of him. That much was obvious. They wanted
a pound of flesh for Natasha Bingham. Nothing less would satisfy
them. The matter of Jennifer Sutherland, though, that had yet to be
addressed.
He raised a hand. It was enough to quickly halt the
heated debate. The women shushed each other until the mess was
finally silent.
‘I believe there is nothing more sacred than the
innocence of a child. And I do believe it was Walter. What he must
have done to the poor girl on that boat . . .’ he shook his head.
‘I cannot forgive him that.’
He could hear the muted sob of Mrs Bingham and
murmurs of agreement.
‘Walter will be cast out for that. And may God have
mercy on his soul.’ He rubbed his bandaged hand unconsciously. ‘As
for Jennifer, she is a person who has been through so very much. I
do feel much sympathy for her. Not anger. She has lost all of her
family. She lost that little girl. And she is angry at me because
she believes I have stolen all of you away from her.’
‘She a fucking nut!’ shouted someone.
‘She had it coming, the fascist bitch!’
Valérie raised his good hand to quieten them down.
‘No, she is not a . . . nut. And I do not think she should
share the same fate as her friend. But,’ he shrugged, ‘I cannot
trust her not to try and attack me again.’
‘Kick her off!’
‘She’s got to go!’
He sighed. ‘It may well be. I shall pray and
consider. However, tomorrow the old man must be dealt with. It
would be unkind to him to delay.’
Tami turned to him. ‘No, you cannot do this!’
Valérie looked at her and smiled sadly. ‘The
judgment is not just mine. God has made His will known through our
mouths, through this discussion.’ He could see from the set of
their faces that that was just what they needed to hear; that it
would be someone else’s call; blood - rightful blood - on the
Lord’s hands, not theirs.
‘So then,’ he continued. ‘Let us pray.’