Chapter 37
10 years AC
M25 Motorway, London
The motorway took them clockwise around
London in a south-easterly direction. They cruised along the wide,
empty motorway, all eyes cast to their right examining the distant
grey urban skyline for any signs of life.
On the approach to each slip road they’d become
accustomed to the familiar pattern of a build-up of abandoned
vehicles, trailing back down the exit run and out onto the motorway
clogging all three lanes. Each time their progress was entirely
blocked they were forced to unload the trailer and lift it over the
central barrier between them and proceed along the oncoming lanes
until they too, became impassable, then it was back over to the
other side again. It seemed like every vehicle in London had ended
up becoming ensnared on this motorway, caught bumper to bumper at
every exit point.
Finally they came off at a junction that would take
them into the city and, eventually, down to the Thames. There had
been a frustrating half an hour trying to ease the trailer through
a logjam of vehicles and around a barricade; once more having to
unload the trailer, lift it over and repack it. But since then the
ride had been almost effortless; the gentle coasting whirr of their
bicycle wheels along the empty road, the occasional clatter of
chains shifting gear and catching, the crackle of glass granules
beneath their tyres and the rustle of dried leaves wind-borne and
stirring.
And every now and then, when she decided it was her
turn with the iPod, she would get utterly lost in the soundtrack of
her younger, happier days.
She grinned as she cycled; felt almost good
- the music made the past feel tangible. For some reason it made
some sort of a future feel almost possible. She began to ask
herself what she was going to do if they really did see lights;
whether she’d still want to part with the boys and head home.
Sunlight shone into her eyes, finding gaps through
the thin veil of clouds; not too hot as they pedalled, but still
T-shirt-warm when they occasionally stopped to catch their
breath.
By early afternoon they took the next exit which,
like all the others, was plugged with abandoned vehicles, on to
another A-road heading west, roughly parallel to the Thames ten
miles further south of them, into central London.
They soon discovered, though, that progress from
this point on wasn’t going to be quite so easy. Although the road
wasn’t so blocked that they needed to dismount and negotiate their
trailer over or around any obstacles, there were enough cars and
trucks left on the hard shoulder or skewed across one lane or
another that it was a relentless weaving slalom for them.
By four in the afternoon, they were passing through
a lifeless outer London, still and silent; terraced houses and
three-storey blocks of flats lined both sides of the road, every
last window smashed leaving dark eye-sockets out of which tattered
net curtains fluttered.
Leona noticed how quiet the boys had become,
particularly Jacob. The spirited chattering about computer games
and comics had dropped down a notch as they’d left the motorway.
Now they pedalled in sombre silence, listening to the soft whisper
of a breeze whistle tunelessly through empty office windows. They
exchanged wary glances every now and then when they heard the
clatter of loose things caught by eddies inside.
They crossed a bridge over a wide estuary, watching
the afternoon sun emerge to sprinkle dazzling shards of light
across the still water. Tugs and barges lay askew on mud flats
either side, gulls and terns stepping delicately between them
across the silt looking for an evening meal. Over the bridge, the
road dipped south bringing them ever closer to the Thames which
they would have been able to see by now if it wasn’t for the
buildings on their left: shopfronts with floors of office space
perched on top and riverside warehousing.
As they rattled and weaved along the road, the
office blocks either side of them grew taller and more
claustrophobic, pressing in on the road and towering over a
seemingly endless parade of gutted news-agents, pubs, pawnbrokers
and bookmakers. The sun was hidden by the tall buildings, every now
and then a winking amber eye staring at them through first-floor
windows, across the offices of abandoned call-centre desks and
cubicle partitions.
‘Hang on,’ said Leona quietly. She stopped and
pulled out her road map once more, orienting it to match the
direction they faced.
Nathan looked around, frowning as he did so. ‘Hey,
I think I know this. This is, like, right near that big exhibition
place.’
Leona nodded, her eyes on the map. ‘The ExCel
Centre?’
‘That’s the one.’
‘What’s the eck-sell?’ asked Jacob.
She looked up at the junction they’d stopped at.
Like every other, it was littered with all manner of pilfered junk,
dragged out, examined and dumped some time during the last decade;
tall weeds poking opportunistically up through gutter grilles,
cracks and bulges in the crumbling tarmac road. Amongst the debris,
the occasional small bundles of stained and sun-faded clothes, from
which dark leathery twigs and tufted scarecrow heads
protruded.
She spotted a rust-peppered street sign above a
KFC. ‘Prince Regent Lane.’ She checked her map again. ‘The
exhibition centre is just down at the end of this road.’
Jacob squinted. ‘Maybe that’s where the lights were
coming from?’
Nathan nodded. ‘Could be. It’s a big-huge place,
Jay, right on the Thames.’
‘They did those big exhibition things there,’ added
Leona. ‘Ideal Home exhibition, a boating thing . . . it’s enormous.
It might have been used for one of the safe zones.’
The three of them stared down the street.
Jacob looking from one to the other. ‘So, we should
go and see, right?’
Leona debated whether, with the daylight they had
left, they should settle themselves in for the night. They hadn’t
seen a single soul since entering London, yet she felt the urge to
find somewhere secure, somewhere they could barricade themselves
in. Even if there were no people around she’d seen plenty of dogs
of all shapes and sizes scattering nervously away at the sound of
their approach and watching them warily from dark doorways as they
passed. She certainly didn’t fancy camping out in the middle of the
street tonight.
Looking at the others, neither did they.
On the other hand, she felt a burning urge to go
take a look-see. According to the map the exhibition centre wasn’t
far away, perhaps another ten or fifteen minutes down the road. And
then they’d be there, right on the bank of the Thames, with a clear
line of sight up and down the river for miles. If it wasn’t the
ExCel building Mr Latoc had seen glowing at night, it could
possibly be the O2 Arena, or perhaps one or other of the towers of
Canary Wharf? Whichever building it was, if somebody was generating
light enough to reflect off an overcast night sky, surely, from
there, right on that famous bend in the Thames, they’d have the
best chance of seeing it.
It was quite possible that they could be sleeping
beneath powered lights tonight.
‘All right,’ she said. ‘We’ve got time to go check
out the ExCel. It’s not that far from here.’
They climbed back on their bicycles and turned left
into Prince Regent Lane. It reminded her of the main road near
their home in Shepherd’s Bush; a party-mix of shops either side:
halal butchers, Caribbean takeaways, a shop selling saris, another
selling hijabs, a snooker club, a small open-air market with rows
of empty wooden stalls, a video store, a supermarket, mosques and
several off-licences elbowing each other for space.
Moments later, halfway down Prince Regent Lane,
they caught sight of the top of the giant exhibition building above
a squat row of two-storey shops; they could see sprigs of white
support poles protruding above a long pale roof. Beside it they
could see the tops of several quayside cranes that had, once upon a
time, serviced the busy barges pulling into Victoria Docks.
It was still light, the combed-out cloudy veil now
lit from below by a setting sun; a beautiful vanilla skyline of
ripples and veins staining the world with a rich sepia warmth.
Although Leona had secretly doubted they were going to find
anything at all in London, doubted the city was busy rebuilding
itself on the quiet, she found herself desperately hoping the
waning light of day would trigger an automatic lights-on response
from somewhere nearby. She almost began to believe that the pale
roof of the exhibition centre was going to flicker to life at any
second, bathed in the clinical glare of a dozen roof-mounted
floodlights.
Their pace quickened.
Towards the end of the road the squat buildings
gave way to flat open ground, a scruffy little playground full of
waist-high grass and brambles growing up the rusting A-frame of a
child’s swing. Beyond it was a railway track with a pedestrian
bridge over the top that would lead them down rickety steps onto a
large riverside parking area at the rear of the giant,
warehouse-like ExCel Centre.
‘Oh, fuck!’ gasped Jacob. ‘It’s huge! I never seen
a building this big!’
Leona remembered coming here once before, as a
girl; she must have been ten or eleven, Jacob hadn’t even been born
then. Mum and Dad had taken her along to some sort of horse and
pony expo - to see whether she really did want to ‘get into horses’
or whether it was just another of her many passing fads.
‘We should leave the bikes and the trailer here,’
she said, ‘if we’re going over the bridge to get a closer
look.’
‘I’ll get the gun,’ said Jacob. ‘Just to be
safe.’
He retrieved it from the back of the trailer.
‘Give it to Nathan,’ Leona said. Jacob sighed
before he handed it over.
‘Here.’
Nathan cocked it and slung the strap over his
shoulder.
‘Okay?’ she said.
The others nodded silently, quickly kicking their
bike stands down. As their feet rang noisily up the metal steps of
the overpass she looked along the railway line below, sleepers lost
beneath a carpet of tangled green, and at the small Docklands Light
Railway station several hundred yards away. She recalled stepping
out onto the platform down there, excited by the sight of the giant
white building towering over her and the convergence of so many
other mums and daughters looking forward to their day inside.
So quiet now, though. No bustle and hubbub of
expectant young voices, just the soft rumpling of a gentle breeze
and the distant tap-tap-tapping of cables against the white
flagpoles above the ExCel roof. They crossed over the train track
and down the steps on the far side and into the parking area -
another deserted expanse of failing concrete divided by flaking
lines of yellow paint.
Leona nodded at the looming, featureless rear wall
of the centre. ‘This must be the service entrance.’
Across the car-park their eyes drifted towards a
quay with a safety rail running along it and beyond that the water
of Victoria Docks, subdued and calm. Dazzling golden shards
rippling across the still surface reflected the bedding sun, fat,
orange and undulating like the hot wax of a lava lamp, looking to
settle for the night.
Jacob nodded towards the quayside rail. ‘Race you,
Nate.’
The boys cut across the car-park, finally
clattering against the railing on the far side, whooping with
delight, claims of victory and counterclaims bouncing back at them
from the rear of the ExCel Centre.
She joined them a moment later, gazing out across
at the docks. On the far side, a row of antiquated cranes stood
tall and aloof; an industrial-age silhouette of spars and
counterweights, swaying rigging chains and the vaulted roofs of
dock warehouses that cast a long deep shadow across the water
towards them.
From where they stood, panting and resting against
the railings, they had an uninterrupted view of the skyline of the
city, looking east along the curving Thames and west towards the
mirror-smooth towers of Canary Wharf, glistening crimson from the
glare of the setting sun.
Leona cupped her eyes as she took it all in,
suddenly aware she was holding her breath in anticipation as she
intently scanned the urban horizon for any signs of life.
London looked beautiful. She realised her heart
ached for this place to come alive once more. For quayside street
lamps to glisten proudly along the waterfront, for expensive
dockside flats to once more cast smug balcony spotlights down onto
even more expensive yachts. But instead, the three of them were
staring at a darkening, lifeless, horizon.
There’s nothing here.
Not a single light amongst the gathering gloom. Not
even a torch beam or a candle or a campfire.
Jacob turned to his right to look at the exhibition
centre. ‘Looks just as dead as everywhere else,’ he said, his voice
carrying the weight of disappointment they all felt.
‘Perhaps the man lied to you two,’ she replied.
‘Told you what you wanted to hear.’
‘Great,’ grunted Nathan flatly.
The boys continued their vigil in silence. Still
looking, still hoping. The reflection of the almost-gone sun
glinted off a far away window, teasing them for a moment.
‘I’m sorry,’ she added softly. ‘If the city centre
was recovering I’m sure we’d have seen something from here.’
Jacob’s lips clamped angrily. ‘Shit!’ He suddenly
screamed, banging the rail with his hands. ‘Shitshitshit!!’ His
voice echoed across the car-park.
She put an arm around his lean shoulders; they were
shaking, trembling with rage.
‘Why?’ His voice broke as tears rolled down his
cheeks. No longer the fresh baritone voice of a young man, but the
heartbroken cry of a boy. ‘Why not by now, Lee? Why not?
It’s been ten years!’
She shook her head. ‘I don’t know, Jake. Maybe
there just isn’t anyone left in London now.’
They’d not spotted a single telltale sign of life
all day; no rooftop vegetable gardens, no parks turned into
allotments that Leona had half expected to find, no smudges of
smoke in the sky, no give-away odour of woodsmoke or burning rubber
- the kind of smell that can travel for miles and miles.
Nothing.
‘Maybe we could go and take a look inside the
ExCel,’ she said, squeezing his shoulder gently. ‘There may be some
things we can forage for. Then, we should find someplace for
tonight.’
‘What about tomorrow?’ asked Nathan. ‘What we goin’
to do?’
Jacob angrily wiped his cheeks dry and steadied
himself with a deep breath. He turned to Nathan and they exchanged
a wordless acknowledgment of defeat, their faces both lifeless and
spent; the naive energy that had driven them to race each other
across the car-park felt stupid now.
‘We head back home, I suppose,’ said Jacob.
Leona nodded and smiled sadly. ‘Yes, home.’