32
CHAPTER
Wind over the lake: the image of inner
truth.
—I Ching (The Book of Changes)
During his last night on the Pawdab, Fritti had a
long, strange journey in the dream-fields.
His spirit soared like a fla-fa‘az over the hills
and trees and waters, the night winds beating in his face. Like the
great Akor that nested in the high mountains, he sailed up, up, up.
The night-belly of Meerclar was his field, to travel in where he
would.
As he sailed the wind spoke in his ear with the
voices of many—Grassnestle, his mother; Bristlejaw and Stretchslow.
They all called his name in the fierce howl of the breeze ... but
he flew on when Pouncequick’s voice cried out to him, too—not in
fear, but in a kind of wonder. As he heard it he swooped down,
hurtling into blackness. The roaring airs became the mad yowls of
Eatbugs and Scratchnail; the soft tones of Roofshadow intertwined
with their screams, speaking his heart name over and over.
“... Fritti Tailchaser ... Fritti ...
Fritti ... Fritti Tailchaser ...”
Then the rushing sound of the winds changed, and
became a great, ceaseless roar. He was skimming above the Bigwater,
so near to it that it seemed he could reach down a paw and skim it
in the waves. Salt wind flattened his whiskers, and the night sky
around him was empty but for the sounding of Qu‘cef.
A bright flash, like Whitewind’s star, appeared
above the horizon. Carried rapidly nearer on the broad back of the
wind, he could see the light gleam, then fade, then gleam
again.
A great, gray tail stood up from the waters of
Qu‘cef. It towered above the waves, and at its summit the light he
had seen burned liked sky-fire.
He was rushing toward it—helplessly, now—when he
heard the voice of Eyeshimmer the Far-senser echo down the
wind:
“The heart’s desire ... is found in an
unexpected place ... unexpected...”
And suddenly the air currents carried him up again,
past the shining light ... and the great, waving tail sank back
down into the waters, extinguishing the glow ... and now ... and
now another, softer light was kindling, spreading across the lower
edge of the night sky ...
It was dawn. Fritti sat up in his bower of
cord-grass, and the early-morning marsh wind came moaning through
the stalks and weeds. He sood up and stretched, listening to the
night insects singing a final chorus.
So Fritti came up out of the marshlands, crossing
the tiny stream—a distant relative of the mighty Caterwaul—that
flowed into the southernmost tip of the Bigwater, marking the
boundaries of the Pawdab.
Sloping up from the shores of Qu‘cef, windswept
meadows with green turf rose gradually on his right flank. Far away
across the grasslands he could see the dwellings of M’an: small,
and isolated from their neighbors. He was traveling U‘ea-ward now,
green fields on his right side and the gravelly sea-strand on his
left.
Woolly Erunor grazed all about the hummocky
meadows. Their fleecy bodies dotted the downs like fat, dirty
clouds that had settled to the ground, too heavy to stay aloft.
They regarded him incuriously as he passed, this small orange cat,
and when he called out to them they grimaced complacently with
yellowed teeth, but did not answer.
When Tailchaser first saw the light he thought it
was a star.
He had come down from the meadow-track to walk
along the shore. The Eye of Meerclar, rapidly approaching fullness,
blued the sand and silvered the waves. By its spirit light he had
caught a crab, but had been unable to force the wet and slippery
shell. In disgust he had watched it limp away—sideways, as if
unwilling to turn its back on him. For some time afterward he had
paced hungrily up and down the strand, in hopes of finding a more
unprotected morsel.
Despairing of his ill-luck, he had looked up and
seen the blossoming glow on the northern horizon. After a moment’s
glare it was gone, but as he stared into the darkness it returned
once more. For a moment it had illuminated the night sky. A
heartbeat later, it had vanished again.
Watching raptly, Fritti walked farther up the beach
The unusual star repeated its cycle of brilliance and darkness. The
words of the Firstborn came back to Tailchaser: “... a strange hill
that shines at night ...”
The spot on the horizon flared again, and he
remembered his dream: the tail in the sea—the waving tail with the
gleaming tip. What was before him?
Dinner on the shore forgotten, he leaped up the
rock-strewn slope. Tonight, he wanted to walk. ‘
That night and the next he followed the beckoning
light; the morning after he came finally into sight of the strange
hill.
As Firefoot had said, it rose up from the midst of
the Bigwater itself, far from the gravel beach. It was a M‘an-hill,
Fritti could tell: it climbed high, and unnaturally straight; it
was as white as new snow.
Tailchaser made his way out to a wooded peninsula
of land that reached out into the sea like an outstretched paw.
From its farthest tip he could make out the island on which the
M‘an-mountain grew.
The island sat in the lap of Qu‘cef, rising up from
the tumbling waves. Its back was green with grass. Fritti could see
tiny Erunor moving slowly on the sward. At the base of the
hill-thing—which looked more like some great, white, branchless
trunk—crouched a M’an-dwelling of the kind Fritti had lived near,
back at the Meeting Wall, so long ago. This was his destination, so
close that the scent of the Erunor carried across to him, tickling
his whiskers. But between Tailchaser and his heart’s desire stood a
thousand jumps of the heaving blue Qu‘cef.
Unfolding Dark came, and the blinding light sprang
forth once more from the top of the M‘an-hill. Tailchaser felt it
as a burning in his heart.
Two more days passed. He remained on the
peninsula, balked and frustrated, hunting up what little game he
could in the bracken and shrubbery. As he patrolled the shore,
thinking and scheming furiously, seabirds wheeled and dove in the
sky above him. He thought he could hear their mocking voices
calling: “Fritti ... Fritti ... Fritti ...”
You are a bug-wit, he chided himself. Why
can’t you solve this problem?
He remembered the story that Earnotch had told him
in the mound about Lord Tangaloor.
Well, Harar’s shining tail, he thought,
what good does it do me? The fla-fa‘az owe me no favors.
They hover and laugh at me.
He looked across the deep waters.
I am not too sure that I would be able to talk a
gteat fish out of eating me, either, he decided. Besides,
they must all know of Firefoot’s famous trick by now.
Depressed, he continued his vigil.
On the fourth day since coming to the little
tongue of land, he saw something coming toward him over the
waves.
Crouching low in the brush at land’s end, he
watched as the mysterious object bobbed its way across the Qu‘cef.
It looked like half a walnut shell that had been cast away after a
Rikchikchik’s meal—but it was bigger. Much bigger.
Something moved inside it. When the shell came
nearer to his peninsula, he could see that the moving thing was one
of the Big Ones—a M‘an. The Big One was moving two long branches
back and forth in the water.
The shell, colored as gray as old tree bark, slid
past Fritti’s vantage point and stopped at last on the shores of a
small inlet at the base of the peninsula. The M‘an climbed out.
After fussing for a while with some sort of long vine, he stamped
his feet and walked away across the meadowlands toward the other
M’an-dwellings.
Fritti ran excitedly down the peninsula, bounding
over roots and stones. When he reached the inlet, he looked
cautiously about—the Big One had disappeared—then loped down to
examine this strange thing.
He sniffed it. It was obviously no walnut shell,
but rather something M‘an-built. It was twice as long as the Big
One was tall. The gray color was flaking off on its side, showing
wood beneath. It smelled of the Qu’cef, and of M‘an, and of fish,
and other things he could not identify. For a long time Fritti
walked around it, scenting its strangeness, then leaped up inside.
He nosed and probed, trying to discover what made it swim like a
great gray pril.
Perhaps it will swim for me, he thought,
and take me across the water.
But it only lay on the rocky beach—no matter where
Fritti stood, or how hard he wished. He lay down on the bottom of
the great shell-thing. He thought hard, trying to see a way to make
it bear him over to the hill that shined. He thought ... and
thought ... and all the pondering, and the warm afternoon sun, made
him feel drowsy....
He awoke with a start. Disoriented, he looked
wildly around, but could see nothing but the sides of the swimming
walnut shell. Footsteps crunched across the gravel toward him.
Groggy and confused, frightened of leaping up and revealing himself
to the Big One, he dove beneath a pile of rough fabric. It
scratched him as he squirmed beneath its comforting
heaviness.
The footsteps of the M‘an stopped, and then the
whole shell was sliding and scraping along the beach. Surprised,
Fritti gripped the wood beneath him with his claws. The scraping
stopped abruptly, to be replaced by a sensation of smooth motion.
Tailchaser heard the Big One climb weightily over the edge, and
then a regular sequence of creaking and splashing.
After some time, Fritti worked up the courage to
poke a pink nose out of the enveloping folds of cloth. The massive
back of the M‘an was turned to him; the Big One was working the
tree limbs back and forth. The shell was entirely surrounded with
water.
Mother Rebum did say “things that move on
water,” thought Tailchaser, so if I succeed—and am not drowned in
this strange nut husk—I suppose I shall have her to
thank.
He curled up in his hiding spot, tail over nose,
and went back to sleep.
Time—he did not know how much—had passed. The
shell thumped to a halt. Fritti heard the M‘an rummaging about, but
his haven was not discovered. Finally the M’an got out and went
thumping away. Tailchaser lay silent for a while, then emerged to
stretch and look about.
The island rose up before him. The shell had come
to rest against a wooden walkway that stretched a short distance
across the water, then ended at a dirt path which wound away up the
grassy slope. At the summit of this path Fritti could see the
M‘an-dwelling, and—looming above it like a white, limbless
Vaka’az‘me—the towering M’an-hill. The sun was still in the sky,
and the white hill was dark.
Fritti made his way up the uneven path. The grass
was springy beneath his feet. He stepped lightly. The wind off the
Bigwater that caressed his nose and whiskers made him feel as
though he had reached the top of the world.
A dark shape detached itself from the bulk of the
M‘an-nest, and with plodding, unhurried steps, came partway down
the hillside. It was a large dog, deep of chest and
heavy-legged.
Feeling curiously light-headed and confident,
Tailchaser continued his sedate walk up the grassy slope. Puzzled,
the fik‘az tilted his head to one shoulder and stared. After a
moment’s curious scrutiny, he spoke.
“You there!”‘ the mastiff barked. “Who be you? What
be you doing?” His voice was as deep and slow as distant
thunder.
“I am Tailchaser, Master Fik‘az. Good dancing to
you. And whom do I have the pleasure of addressing?”
The dog squinted down at him. “Huff-so-Gruff am I.
You didna answer question. What be you doing?”
“Oh, just looking about,” said Fritti, waving his
tail in a disarming manner. “I just flew over from the other side
of the water, and I thought I’d look around. Quite a lovely place,
isn’t it?”
“Aye,” growled Huff-so-Gruff, “but you shouldna be
here. Be off, you.” The dog glowered for a moment, muzzle lowered,
then once more cocked his head to the side. “Said you ... ‘flew’?”
he asked slowly. “Cats dunna fly.”
As they talked, Tailchaser had been drawing
steadily closer. Now, barely five jumps away from the fik‘az,
Fritti sat, and began to groom nonchalantly.
“Oh yes, some do,” he said. “As a matter of fact,
my whole tribe of flying cats is thinking of making this spot our
new nesting grounds. We need a place to lay our eggs, you
know.”
Tailchaser got up and began to walk in a wide
circle around the dog. “Yes, think of it,” he said, looking from
side to side. “Hundreds of flying cats ... big ones, little ones
... it’s quite a marvelous idea, isn’t it?”
He was almost safely past when a deep, rumbling
snarl issued from Huff-so-Gruff. “Cats canna fly!! I willna have
it!”
The mastiff leaped forward, baying, and Fritti
turned and bolted up the hill. Within a few jumps he realized there
were no trees to climb, no fences to dodge behind; it was open
grass to the top of the rise.
Well, he thought suddenly, why should I
bother to run? I have faced worse dangers before, and
survived.
He whirled to face the great mastiff bearing down
on him.
“Come on, dung-sniffer!” Tailchaser howled. “Come
and meet a child of Firefoot!”
Huff-so-Gruff, in mid-bark, ran unsuspectingly into
a faceful of yowling, scratching cat. His deep baying turned to a
yelp of surprise as sharp claws raked his jowls.
Like a small orange whirlwind, Fritti was suddenly
all over the Growler—claws and teeth and screeching voice. Shocked,
Huff-so-Gruff pulled back, shaking his large head. In that second,
Tailchaser was off again, ears back and tail trailing.
As the dismayed Growler gingerly ran his tongue
over his lacerated nose, Fritti reached the M‘an-dwelling. With a
leap and scrabble he was up the low stone wall and onto the
thatched roof. Standing at the edge, he let out a cry of
triumph.
“Don’t take the Folk so lightly again, you great
clumsy beast!”
Down on the ground below, Huff-so-Gruff grunted.
“Come you down and you be eaten, cat,” he said disgustedly.
“Hah!” sneezed Tailchaser. “I will bring you an
army of my Folk to settle here, and we will tweak your tail and
smack your hanging chops until you die from shame! Hah!”
Huff-so-Gruff turned and trudged away with heavy
dignity.
Fritti walked softly back and forth across the
thatch, his heart gradually slowing to its usual pace. He felt
wonderful.
After some searching—leaning out over the edge,
wrinkling his nose—he found an open window underneath the eaves of
the roof. He looked carefully around for the Growler, but Huff
so-Gruff was many jumps down the slope, nursing his wounds. Fritti
sprang down to the stone wall, then quickly back up to the
windowsill. He paused for a moment to gauge the distance to the
floor inside, wavered on the sill, then leaped down.
In the middle of the room, curled in a deep-furred
ball, lay Hushpad.