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CHAPTER
I feel
The link of nature draw me: flesh of flesh,
Bone of my bone thou art, and from thy state
Mine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
The link of nature draw me: flesh of flesh,
Bone of my bone thou art, and from thy state
Mine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
—john Milton
In his dream Tailchaser was standing at the very
pinnacle of a tall needle of rock, hundreds of jumps above a misty
forest. Looking down from his perch, he could hear the sounds of
creatures hunting for him in the mists below—thin noises of speech
that drifted up into his ears. It was cold on the rock; it seemed
as if he had been on it forever. Below, the frozen green sea of
forest stretched infinitely into the distance.
Although he knew he was in danger, Fritti felt no
fear, but only a sense of the dull inevitable: soon the searchers
would exhaust the hiding places in the woods below; inescapably
their attention would turn to the spire. The burning eyes would
gather at the bottom, then move upward....
Looking out into the swirling fogs that blurred the
separation of earth and sky, Fritti saw an odd pattern in the
vapors: a strange, spiraling nexus. With the speed and completeness
natural to dreams it resolved itself into a white cat, spinning and
spinning as it approached his eyrie. It was not the white cat of
his Firsthome hallucination, though. As the revolving shape neared
it became Eyeshimmer, Oel var‘iz of the First-walkers.
Hovering before Fritti, Eyeshimmer sang out in a
high, keening voice: “Even the Garrin fears something ... even the
Garrin fears ...”
Suddenly, a great wind blew up, setting the mists
dancing. Eyeshimmer whirled off into the blackness. The wind swept
through the trees, and around Tailchaser’s rock. He could hear
sounds of fear and despair from the hunters below. Finally, there
were only the rushing fogs, and the roaring of wind and lost
voices....
Tailchaser awoke on the hot, moist floor of his
prison, mired in the sleeping bodies of his fellow captives. He
tried to hold on to the dream-shards that were even now melting
away like frost in the sun.
Eyeshimmer. What had the Oel-var‘iz told him
that day, so long ago? They had been taking leave from Quiverclaw
and his walkers....
“ ... Everyone flees from the bear ...but sometimes
the bear has bad dreams....” In the dream, Eyeshimmer had mentioned
the Garrin, the bear, also—but what did it mean? Surely nothing
about a real Garrin? “Everyone flees from the bear ...” Could it
mean Hearteater? Bad dreams ... was there something that even Lord
Hearteater feared? What?
Fritti’s thoughts were interrupted by the arrival
of the Clawguard. In the ensuing confusion, the reluctant rising
and the scramble up the entranceway to a meager breakfast,
Tailchaser’s dream faded back into his mind, dissolved by cruel
reality.
Aboveground an Eye had opened, shut, and opened
again since Fritti had come to Vastnir Mound. The brutal routine,
harsh punishments, and hideous surroundings had pounded most of the
resistance from him. He rarely thought of his friends: his
inability to help them or himself was as terrible as his
imprisonment ; to dwell on it was more galling than to sink into
the mud with all the others, to fight over grubs and squabble over
a place to eat, and to keep an eye opened at all times for the
Clawguard. Or the Toothguard. It was easier not to care; to live
from moment to moment.
Once a muted hiss had run through the ranks of the
tunnel slaves: “The Boneguard is coming!” The rustling shadows had
come forward from a disused tunnel, and the light had seemed to
dim. All of the other captive Folk had thrown themselves to the
ground, their eyes tightly shut—even the Clawguard had looked
nervous, their fur bristling. Fritti had felt a momentary urge to
remain standing, to face up to whatever awful truth scared even
their hulking captors, but as the strange voices and the cloying,
spicy smell had wafted toward him his legs had become weak, and he,
too, had sunk down—not looking up until Hearteater’s chosen were
gone. Thus, in the large things and the small, little by little,
Fritti’s spirit was broken to the mound.
Small alliances were made among the captives, the
cats’ natural aloofness giving way slightly under the strain of the
situation, but these comradeships were transitory, gone with the
first dispute over food, or room to stretch out for a moment. There
were few diversions and very little cheer.
One endless night, though, as the captives lay in
their underground cave, someone called for a story. The audacity of
this request made several captives look around fearfully for the
Claws: it seemed as though someone would move to prevent such a
straightforward pleasure as this. When no one appeared, the call
was repeated. Earnotch, a battered old tabby from Rootwood, agreed
to try. For a long time he stared intently at his paws, then with a
last, quick look to the entrance shaft, began.
“Once, long ago—long, long ago—Lord Firefoot found
himself on the shores of the Qu‘cef, the Bigwater. He desired to
cross, for he had heard rumors that those Folk who dwelt on the
other side—distaff descendants of his cousin, Prince Skystone—
lived in a land of great beauty and plentiful hunting. Well, there
he sat on the banks of the Bigwater, and wondered how to reach the
other side.
“After a while, he called for Pfefirrit, a prince
of the fla-fa‘az who owed him a favor from days gone by. Pfefirrit,
a heron of great size, came down and hovered overhead—but not
too close to the great hunter.
“ ‘What may I do for you, O cleverest cat?’ he
asked. Lord Firefoot told him, and the bird-prince flew away.
“When he returned, the sky at his tail was full of
fla-fa‘az of every description. At their prince’s command, they all
flew down close to the Qu’cef and began to beat their wings, making
a mighty wind. The wind blew so cold that the water soon froze
over.
“Tangaloor Firefoot set out, the fla-fa‘az moving
before him, turning the Bigwater to ice in his path so that he
could walk across. When they reached the far side, Pfefirrit
swooped down and said: ’That pays for all, cat-lord,‘ and then flew
away.
“Well, cu‘nre-le, several days later Lord Firefoot
had explored all the far country. It was indeed lovely, but he
found the inhabitants to be strange and somewhat simpleminded Folk,
much given to talking and little to doing. He had resolved to cross
back over to his own land, and so he made his way to the water’s
edge.
“The Bigwater was still hard and frosted, and he
moved out onto it to walk home. It was a long way, though—not for
kittenplay is it named the Bigwater—and when he was in the middle
the ice began to melt. Firefoot ran, but it had been too long, and
the Qu‘cef melted beneath him, dropping him into the icy
water.
“He swam for a long time in the terrible cold, but
his great heart would not give up. He struggled on toward land.
Then, suddenly, he looked up to find a great fish with a fin on its
back—and more fangs than the Toothguard—swimming in circles around
him.
“‘Well, well,’ said the fish, ‘what is this tender
morsel that I find swimming about in my home? I wonder if it tastes
as good as it looks.’
“Now, Firefoot had been in despair when he saw the
size of the fish, but when it spoke he was suddenly filled with
joy, for he saw a way out of all his troubles.
“ ‘I am certainly good-tasting!’ said Lord
Tangaloor. ‘All of the swimming cats are tender in the
extreme. It would be a shame, though, if you ate me.’
“ ‘And why is that?’ said the immense fish,
swimming closer.
“ ‘Because if you devour me, there will be no one
to show you the sunlit cove where my people live and sport in the
water all the time, and where a great fish such as yourself could
eat and eat and never have his fill.’
“ ‘Hmmmm,’ mused the fish. ‘And if I spare you,
will you show me where the swimming cats live?’
“ ‘Of course,’ said Firefoot. ‘Just let me climb
onto your back that I may see the way better.’ So saying, he
clambered onto the fish’s huge, finned back and they swam on.
“As they approached the far side of the Qu‘cef, the
fish demanded to know where the cove of the swimming cats
was.
“ ‘Just a little farther, I am sure,’ Firefoot
said; so on they went, until they were very close to the shore.
Again the fish demanded to know the place.
‘“Just a little closer in,’ said Lord Tangaloor.
They came closer still to the shore, until—of a sudden—the water
became so shallow that the giant fish found he was unable to move
farther forward. Then he discovered he was too far aground to move
backward, either, and could only roar in anger as Firefoot leaped
off his back and waded to the sand.
“ ‘Thank you for the ride, Master Fish!’ he said.
‘As a matter of fact, I’m afraid we do very little swimming
where I come from, but we do like to eat! I am going to find a few
other of my Folk, and then we are going to return and dine on you
the way you would have on us!’
“And they did. This is why, from that time forward,
no cat has willingly entered the water ... and we eat only those
fish we can catch without getting wet.”
The prisoners laughed as Earnotch finished his
story-song. For a moment it was as though all the rocks and earth
between those Folk and the sky had melted away, and they were
singing together beneath Meerclar’s Eye.
The mound never slept. Like a hive of maddened
insects, the labyrinth of tunnels and caves was alive with strange
forms and unheard cries. The pale light of the luminous earth made
the main corridors and caverns a shadow-play of teeming, flickering
ghosts. Elsewhere there were unlit paths as dark as the spaces
between worlds—but even in these black, desolate places unseen
shapes moved, and sourceless winds blew.
The mound had not been long in the eye of the sun.
Scarcely half a dozen seasons had swept by above since the
blistered earth of the valley floor had first begun to rise,
swelling like a tree limb seeded with wasp’s eggs. Like the wound
it resembled, the mound covered on the surface the deeper and more
profound disturbance below: leagues and leagues of tunnels
stretching out in capillary profusion; passing away through the
soil, beneath hill and forest and stream in all directions, like a
stupendous, hollow spider’s web.
At the center of the web, beneath the blunt dome of
Vastnir, the cruel, incomprehensible spider tested the strands, his
body gross and immovable, his mind questing out to the limits of
his spreading dominion. Grizraz Hearteater—born of Goldeneye and
Skydancer, corrupted beneath the earth since the world was
young—felt his time approaching. He was a force, and in a
world scaled down by the passing and lessening of the Firstborn, he
was a force to which no other could now compare. In the heart of
his mound he lay, and his creatures multiplied around him,
spreading outward. The tunnels, too, were spreading, riddling the
surface world from below. Soon there would be no place so remote
that it would exceed his grasp. And the night was his: his
creatures, created in the dark of the earth, ruled the darkness
above as well. When the last threads were complete he would also
rule the Hours of brightness. All he needed was time, only a slim
moment in comparison to the eons he had waited and schemed ... and
burned. What could impede him now, so near to final sunset? His
family and peers were gone from the earth without trace, except in
myth and reverence. He was a power, and where was the power
that would come against him?
His inexorable, cold intelligence weighed these
arguments and found them solid—but still he was not free of a
smallest, most insignificant mote of unease. Hearteater threw his
mind outward again: searching, searching....
Since sunrise, Roofshadow had been pacing intently
back and forth along the tree-sparse edge of Ratleaf Forest. To her
west, across the broad expanse of valley, lay the slumbering
presence of the mound.
Back and forth, soft gray paws laid delicately down
one after another, Roofshadow walked a careful circuit. Her head
was hung low, as if her pacing indicated deep thought or momentous
decisions to be made, but in actuality she had already made her
choice.
The sun, sparking the cold air and striking diamond
gleams from the snowy ground, had passed the meridian and was
beginning its winter-rapid descent when the gray fela stopped her
careful treading and tipped an ear toward the earth. She was
motionless for long seconds—as if the wind from the mountains above
had frozen her, fur and bone, where she stood. Then, shaking her
head gently, she lowered a snuffling nose, breathed for a moment,
then suddenly canted her ear again. As if satisfied, she extended
her paw, tapped softly on the crusty snow and began to scrape away
the cold white skin of the sleeping earth.
Once through the powdery shell, she lowered her
weight onto her back legs and began to dig in earnest. The soil was
near-frozen and her paws stung, but she continued her rapid
movements, sending flurries of mud and rock up from beneath her
tail.
The Hour passed, and Roofshadow began to fear she
had sensed incorrectly. The ground was hard-packed and firm; most
of her small, slender form was below the hole’s rim when, without
warning, a spading paw thrust through the bottom of the pit into
emptiness beyond.
Warm, fetid air rushed up through the aperture, and
she reared back in surprise. This was what she had sought, though.
She grimly resumed digging. A short span of scrabbling and she was
able to pass her head and whiskers through the opening. When she
pulled her front paws through she felt a surge of panic as, for a
moment, she was suspended over nothingness, dangling helplessly.
The unknown darkness below her became a bottomless abyss. Her
weight pulled her back legs past the crumbling rim of the hole. She
fell only a moment, then touched lightly down on the loam on a
tunnel floor.
She turned her eyes briefly back to the hole above
her, which glowed with the light of the setting sun. It seemed a
very small hole now, although it was not very far away. It was not
far away, but it was behind her.
Head down, green eyes wide to gather what little
light there was in this dark, unfriendly world, Roofshadow padded
silently down into the earth.