Chapter 13
Killing Page
I RETRIEVED CLASH FROM THE STABLE back in
Millfields. Clash and Page eyed each other warily, and Clash made a
loud, snorting sound. “Okay,” I said as I saddled up Clash, “now we
need to find you a horse. Perhaps . . .”
“No thanks. I’ll walk.”
I stared at her, confused. “Look, Page, if it’s a
matter of money, I have more than enough to cover purchasing a
horse for—”
“I don’t need your charity, and I don’t need a
horse.”
“Page, what in the world is going—?”
The gnome chuckled, which was one of the more
unsettling noises I’d heard in a while, then he said, “She’s afraid
of horses.”
“I am not!” Page said defensively.
“I can smell it coming off her.”
“I do not smell. That’s it. Finn, I don’t
know what your obsession with this creature is, but it’s ending
right now,” and she started to go for her gun again.
Resting a hand firmly on hers before she could draw
the weapon, I said, “Page . . . ?”
“I am not afraid of horses,” she said tersely.
“Horses and I just don’t get along, that’s all.”
“Does anyone get along with you?” asked the
gnome.
Once again, she attempted to pull out her
flintlock, and, once more, I prevented her from doing so. I
suspected that she was allowing me to stop her. There was no doubt
in my mind that the gnome had been quite right. If it came to a
brawl, Page really would be able to mop the floor with me. “I’m not
good with animals in general, if you have to know. Dogs try to bite
me, cats try to scratch me. Horses make those loud, angry horse
noises at me. It has nothing to do with fear. I’m simply not an
animal person.”
I somehow knew that the gnome was going to ask if
she was even a person person, and so I fired him a warning look.
Once upon a time, nothing I could have said or done would have shut
him up. Happily, this time he saw my look and clamped his mouth
shut before saying anything.
“It’s going to take us quite a while to get to
Blackholm if we’re walking the whole way.”
“That’s not my problem,” she said. Clash stared at
her, and there seemed to be actual animosity in his eyes that I’d
never seen before. It appeared that she was right about the
antipathy of animals for her.
“Tell you what, Page. I’ll take the reins, and you
can ride behind me. Clash can handle two riders easily. I won’t
even go at full gallop.”
“Listen, Finn,” she began to say.
But the gnome cut her off, looking outraged at the
suggestion. “The back is where I ride!” he said in protest. “She
has no business sitting there. What’s the matter? Are you that
eager to have her flat breasts pushed up against your back? Her
manly arms wrapped around you so that you can find some womanish
pleasure in them? And you said we were partners!”
Page’s jaw dropped, and she stared at me as if I’d
lost my mind. “Partners?”
“It’s complicated,” I said, which was something of
an understatement.
“You are not,” the gnome said firmly to Page,
“going anywhere near that horse. Do you understand? Nowhere
near!”
I saw something I had never seen from Page. Her
body was literally trembling with fury. Then she suddenly turned,
strode toward Clash, placed her hands on his rump, and vaulted onto
his hindquarters in as smooth a mount as I’ve ever seen. Clash
stumbled a few steps forward, clearly startled, and for a moment it
looked as if he was considering bucking and throwing her off.
Quickly, I grabbed his bridle, and said, “Shhh. Shhh. Calm down,
big fella. You just have to get to know her, that’s all.” Clash’s
eyes were remarkably expressive as they looked at me with barely
restrained impatience. Apparently, Page was right; there was
something about her that animals simply didn’t like. Fortunately
enough, Clash seemed prepared to tolerate her, which was quite a
concession from him.
The gnome looked apoplectic. “Fine! And when you
fall off and break your neck, I’ll be standing over your body and
laughing and dancing, like this!” Whereupon the gnome proceeded to
dance around in bizarre gyrations while producing a demented cackle
that sounded like a swarm of bats spiraling around. This went on
for about ten seconds or so, then he stomped off toward a tree and
flopped down next to it. His face was umber with fury.
Page stared at me questioningly. “Just how
complicated is this partner business?”
“He saved my life, all right? Just . . .” I put up
a hand. “Just give me a minute.” With a heavy sigh, I strode over
to the gnome and crouched near him. “Look . . .” I started to
say.
To my astonishment, in a low voice the gnome said,
“Don’t say I never did anything for you.”
I blinked. “What?”
“I know how the human female mind works better than
you do. Just how pathetic is that?” Then he abruptly raised
his voice again so that Page could hear, and said, “Fine! Ride off!
At least a real man will finally be on that horse’s back!
You’re lucky he’s going to let you handle the reins!”
With that, he scrambled upward into the tree and
disappeared into the branches.
There was no doubt in my mind that the gnome was
going to be able to keep up with us. Indeed, I was starting to
wonder if he had some supernatural ability to transport himself
from point to point, because his talent to show up constantly
wherever I was bordered on the arcane.
The crafty little bugger. He’d actually managed to
outthink Page and get her to do exactly what he wanted. Granted, it
was in service to a desire to see me kill her, but still, I had to
admire his ingenuity.
We set out. As good as my word, I kept Clash going
at a brisk trot rather than anything approaching a gallop. He
seemed to be a bit annoyed at the slow pace. I could feel him
straining against me every so often, wanting to cut loose and move
at full speed. But I maintained the trot, and, eventually, Clash
seemed to realize that this was how fast we were going to be moving
and no faster.
Page seemed reluctant to put her hands on me, but
it was necessary so that she wouldn’t fall off. So she held on to
my shoulders, balancing herself carefully. For someone who loudly
proclaimed that she disliked horses, she certainly cut a confident
figure.
We rode with very little chatter back and forth
between the two of us. That wasn’t all that surprising. Page was
something of a taciturn type, and I was still daunted by the idea
that I was supposed to kill her. I had come no closer to
determining whether I could accomplish that or not.
At one point we stopped along the way and ate
sparingly of our supplies. I studied her as we did so, then said
gently, “Are you all right?”
She glanced up at me, almost as if she were
surprised to see that I was there. “I’m fine. Why do you
ask?”
“You just seem . . . I don’t know . . .
tired.”
“I haven’t been sleeping much, that’s all.”
I could see it in her face. Her eyes looked a bit
sunken, and there was a general air of exhaustion about her. “You
know what your problem is?” I said.
“You’re going to tell me, aren’t you?” She sounded
quietly amused.
“You care too much. You care about the people of
Bowerstone. You care about your causes. You care about everyone and
everything.”
“Oh yes. What a bitch I am,” she said.
“I was just wondering why that was. What is there
in your past that makes you take everything to heart?”
She was sitting with her back against a tree.
Dabbing at the edges of her mouth, brushing away the crumbs from
the slightly stale biscuit she’d just finished. “I’m not like you,
Ben Finn. I don’t feel the need to dredge up everything from the
past to explain the present. You don’t look at a mountain and say
to yourself, ‘I wonder what the entire history of that mountain is.
What sort of forces were required to carve it into the shape it now
has?’ No, you just look at the mountain and accept it for what it
is.”
“I accept you, Page. I just don’t pretend to
understand you.”
She laughed. As passionate as she was about her
causes when she was in Bowerstone, she appeared to be visibly
relaxing once she was away from it. “That’s fine with me, Finn. I
prefer to be an enigma. I think it makes me more”—and she passed
her hand in front of her face—“mysterious.”
I presented a mocking bow. “As you wish, my
mysterious lady.”
We continued on horseback. Page actually engaged in
conversation from that point on. The farther we progressed, the
more at ease she appeared. I doubted she would ever have admitted
it, but she almost seemed grateful that I had encouraged her to
depart Bowerstone.
She still remained reticent about her background; I
suspected I could not have pried it out of her with a crowbar. But
she talked of her concerns about Bowerstone and seemed particularly
worried about whatever Reaver might be up to. “That bastard won’t
be satisfied until he owns the whole of Bowerstone, every square
block,” she said. “And then there are days that I think even
Bowerstone is insufficient for his interests. That he’s looking
beyond it to the whole of Albion. The other night I . . .” She
hesitated. “I had a dream . . .”
“A dream? You mean like a prophetic dream or . . .
?”
“Gods, I hope not,” she said with an apprehensive
laugh. “I saw Reaver, and he was gigantic . . . a hundred feet tall
or higher . . . and he was standing over all of Albion, his legs
just stretching from one side to the other. I couldn’t even see
where his feet were coming down. I fired at him with my pistol, and
he didn’t even feel it; it was less than pinpricks to him. And he
was just laughing and laughing, and when I woke up, I was bathed in
sweat, but I could swear I still heard that laughing.”
“Ouch.” I shuddered. “That sounds brutal.”
“It was.”
“But still . . .”
“What? Say what’s on your mind.”
“Is it possible you’re just too obsessed with
him?”
“I think I may not be obsessed enough with
him.”
I frowned. “What do you mean by that?”
“He doesn’t even know I’m alive, Finn.”
Unconsciously, I think, she thumped her fist on my shoulder blade.
“I’m constantly trying to keep an eye on his endeavors and petition
our ruler for rules and restrictions on Reaver’s undertakings, and
yet for all that . . . for all that . . . I’m betting he doesn’t
remember my name.”
I’d take that bet.
“The giant in the dream represented what he is and
what I am. I can’t hurt him. I can’t stop him.”
“But you also can’t give up.”
“No, I can’t,” she said reluctantly. “Because
Reaver is a blight on Albion that should be purged, and as much as
I’d like to turn away from that, it’s just impossible. I’m on this
trip with you to Blackholm, and it’s a diversion at best. I know
that, when this is done—assuming I come through it in one piece, of
course—I’m going to return to Bowerstone and go right back to work
trying to rid the town of its influence. Even if . . .”
Her voice trailed off.
“Even if what?” I said.
She hesitated, then said darkly, “I helped get rid
of one ruler who didn’t have the people’s best interests at heart.
There’s no reason I can’t get rid of a second one.”
I snapped the reins and brought Clash to a halt.
Turning half-around in the seat to fix my gaze on her, I said, “You
speak treason.”
“It’s one of several languages I’m fluent
in.”
“Page, you can’t . . .”
“Ideally, I won’t have to,” she said. “Make no
mistake, Finn: I haven’t given up on the notion of effecting change
through peaceful means. I’m not a warmonger, and I’m certainly not
seeking out a fight. I’d like to think I’m better than that.”
You are. I’m just not sure what I’m
better than.
WE RODE UNTIL LATE AND MADE CAMP BY the
roadside. The stars twinkled down as if they were winking at me,
whispering, We can see what you’re about to do.
Page had drifted to sleep almost immediately, and
her chest was rising and falling in time with a soft, steady
snoring. She had removed and stored her flintlock and sword,
although I didn’t see where she had put them. It wasn’t a concern,
though. It wasn’t as if she was going to need them.
So there we were. I stood over her, and I had my
pistol handy and my sword as well.
I knew exactly where to shoot her in a way that
would bring about death instantly. She would never feel a thing;
she’d wake up dead, as they say. Still, just standing there several
feet away and ensuring she never woke up . . . I mean, I’d never
considered shooting someone from a safe distance as craven before,
but for me this was new depths. My hand strayed to the hilt of my
sword. I could pull that and bring it down hard and fast, beheading
her in one stroke. At least if I was going to be a damned
executioner, I could perform the task in the traditional
manner.
She murmured something in her sleep, tossed
slightly, and settled back into her slumber.
I released my hold on the sword. Fine. I was a
coward. It was a hard thing for me to admit to myself, but there it
was. Bad enough that I was going to kill her during her slumber,
but I was going to do it in such a way that I didn’t have to get my
hands dirty. It would be the gun after all.
What proof would I bring to Reaver that I had done
the deed? I’d probably have to behead her in any event and bring
that with me. It was a nasty, gruesome business, but there was
nothing else to do. I didn’t think he was going to accept one of
her hands.
I leveled my pistol at her. I tried to force myself
to cock the hammer. My thumb pressed down on it and mashed against
it, trying to find the strength to draw it back. But it seemed as
if it had become wedged shut, resisting every attempt I made to
pull it back.
I knew in my heart this wasn’t the case. There was
nothing wrong with the trigger; there was something wrong with
me.
Here we had come down to it: Page’s life against my
brother’s freedom. I had the opportunity, I had the weaponry, all I
had to do was utilize it, and I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t pull the
trigger. I couldn’t even cock the hammer.
I had no idea how to help my brother. However, on
some level, I suppose it was nice to find out that I did indeed
have scruples. That there were depths to which I was unwilling to
stoop.
“I can’t do it,” I said, very softly.
“I can.”
It was Page who had spoken. Still lying on the
ground, she was looking right at me with eyes that showed no hint
of fatigue or, for that matter, mercy. She sloughed aside her bed
wrap to reveal her flintlock pointed right at me. Unlike mine, her
hammer was cocked, the sound having been muffled by her bed wrap.
All she had to do was apply the slightest pressure, and I was a
dead man.
I forced a smile, then said in a soothing voice,
“You’re sleeeeping. This is just a dreeeeam. Go back to—”
“Shut up.”
“Okay.”
The barrel of the gun never wavered. “Did you think
I was stupid?” she said.
“Think? No. I was kind of hoping, though . .
.”
“I knew something was wrong,” she said tightly. Her
voice was flat and unyielding. If I made the slightest move, she
was clearly ready to kill me. Apparently, my being unable to kill
her had garnered me no points. “Showing up in Bowerstone, trying to
get me out of there with that nonsense about Blackholm . . .”
“Actually, that part was true.”
“Really.” She raised an eyebrow. “And you were
bringing me there to be their leader?”
“No, that I made up.”
“Instead,” she said, “you wanted to bring me out
into the woods to kill me.”
“I admit it sounds rather bad when you put it that
way.”
“Finn”—and she placed her free hand under her other
to hold the flintlock absolutely rock steady—“if you have any
interest in seeing the sun rise, put your gun away and tell me
what’s going on.”
I did exactly that. I shoved the pistol into my
belt, then I told her. What other choice did I have?
Very quickly, I outlined the specifics of my
situation. I told her about my brother enslaved to Reaver and that
her death was the only possibility of getting him back. She
listened without interruption to the entire thing, and, when I had
finished, she didn’t say anything for a time.
“Could you possibly point that elsewhere?” I said,
indicating her flintlock.
The muzzle didn’t budge in the slightest. Some
people have serious issues with trusting others.
She spoke slowly, deliberately. “You’re telling me
that the best plan you could come up with was to try to lure me out
of Bowerstone in a painfully obvious manner, then kill me in the
woods?”
“I think ‘plan’ might be an overly generous word. I
was more or less making it up as I went.”
“I’d never have guessed. Why in the world didn’t
you simply tell me the situation you were in?”
“Because Reaver has spies everywhere. There was one
stalking me outside an inn I stayed over at, and I have no idea how
many others were spread out through Bowerstone. I couldn’t trust
that anything I said might not be overheard, then Reaver would have
done who-knowswhat to William.”
“William. The brother who was dead.”
“The brother who I thought was dead. It turns out I
was misinformed. Look, Page,” I continued quickly, “this is
actually all transpiring to our advantage.”
“How do you figure that?”
“We’re all alone out here,” I pointed out. “None of
Reaver’s spies are around to inform him that I’ve failed to kill
you. I was completely serious when I said you were the better
leader. Here, now, we can put together a plan in which you survive,
and we liberate my brother.”
“Or I could just shoot you.”
“Well, that would be one way to go. I’d like to
find an alternative that entails considerably less dying on my
part.”
She had been lying there the entire time, never
shifting out of the position save to steady her grip on the gun.
Now, though, she slowly sat up and, at the same time, lowered the
gun. I let out a low sigh of relief as she got to her feet.
“Okay,” I said, “now that that’s—”
Her right fist flew before I could react and
clocked me on the side of the head. I went down, a ringing inside
my skull so loud that I felt as if I had stuck my head inside a
bell tower. I placed my hands flat and firmly on the ground as the
world swirled around me.
“That,” she said, “was for being less than honest
with me. We were partners in a great battle, Finn. I deserve more
consideration than that.”
“I think you’ve made your point rather
emphatically,” I said, rubbing the side of my head. I moved my jaw
side to side and felt a slight clicking within. I hoped that would
go away in short order; I had no desire to live the rest of my life
with that.
She shook out her fist and flexed the fingers. Bone
on bone was never the smartest way to punch someone. Far better to
aim for the gut or right at the nose. But I guess Page felt she had
to make a point. “So the question before us now is: Now
what?”
“I don’t know,” I admitted. “Honestly, I’d be
thrilled if you came up with something.”
“First you try to kill me, then you’re going to
follow me. That about sum it up?”
“If I’d really been trying to kill you, Page, you’d
be dead.”
“I had my gun on you the entire time, Finn. The
only thing that saved you was that you never cocked your weapon. If
you had, I’d be standing here trying to decide whether to bury you
or leave you to be a feast for crows.”
“Well, I guess we’ll never know,” I said,
endeavoring to summon what was left of my injured pride. “So what
now?”
“What now? What should really be now is that I go
back to Bowerstone and leave you to this mess that you got yourself
into.”
I shrugged. “All right, then. Can’t say I blame
you. If that’s what’s going to have to—”
“Be quiet.”
“Okay, then.”
She stroked her chin, walking back and forth,
considering the matter. I could practically hear the wheels
spinning inside her head. Already, I was starting to feel a few
more shreds of confidence than I had earlier. Perhaps Page really
could develop some sort of strategy. She was, after all, not
emotionally invested the way I was. She would be able to study the
problem dispassionately and come up with a workable plan. At least
that was the theory, and I was praying that it would turn out to be
fact.
Suddenly, Clash, who had been quiet the entire
time, reared up. His reins were tied to a tree, but I was sure that
had they not been, he would have bolted. He whinnied loudly, his
brown eyes wide with terror.
I have to chalk it up to Page’s basic antipathy for
animals that she didn’t realize something was wrong. “Would you
shut that beast up? I’m trying to think!”
There was no time. Something was coming, something
that was terrifying Clash. I yanked out my sword, and Page jumped
back, perhaps thinking that I was going to use it to attack her.
Instead, I swept it down and cut through the ropes that were
keeping Clash attached to a tree. Clash backed up, still
whinnying.
Page had yanked out her flintlock once more and was
aiming it in my direction. “I’m not the enemy!” I shouted above
Clash’s terror. “The enemy is out th—!”
I never made it through the sentence as an
onslaught of Reaver’s Half-breeds came pouring out of the
forest.
They had approached with complete stealth. Had it
not been for Clash’s terror, I’d have had no knowledge that they
were anywhere in the vicinity. My sword still in my hand, I yanked
out my pistol with the other. I fired nearly point-blank, and the
closest Half-breed went down, but two more were right behind him.
Now that they had revealed themselves, all need for silence was
gone.
Page fired off a quick shot and yanked clear her
steel broadsword. She met the charge fearlessly, shouting defiance.
A broadsword isn’t designed for subtlety. You wield it in the same
way that you would an axe while trying to cut down trees. Page laid
into them, whipping her blade around, trying to get a cut at
anything within range.
Ideally, we would have gone back-to-back,
protecting each other’s flank while trying to chop our assailants
into pieces. But we didn’t have the opportunity because the flow of
Half-breeds cut us off from each other.
I slashed away with my cutlass, trying to hack
through them and make it to Page’s side. But there were too many of
them, pushing me back. I retreated, still swinging. They seemed to
be coming from everywhere, and I wasn’t sure if my brother was
among them. I certainly hoped not. It would be a hell of a thing
if, after all this, I wound up bisecting my brother in the heat of
combat.
Page suddenly screamed in pain, and I saw blood
pouring down her face from a slice in her forehead. If the blood
got into her eyes, blinding her, she was done for. I redoubled my
efforts to get to her, shouting defiance. Then one of them managed
to get in behind me and grab me by the back of my shirt. He flung
me as hard as he could, and I literally sailed through the air. My
head slammed into something big and hard, and I had just enough
time to register that it was a tree before I slid down to its base.
The last thing I saw was the creatures bearing a still-struggling
Page to the ground, then blackness enfolded me. I was sure that I
would not be returning to the land of the living.
As was true about so many things, however, it
turned out that I was wrong.
When consciousness slowly flooded into me, I became
aware of the heavy breathing of a horse. I opened my eyes, and
there was Clash standing in front of me, studying me with obvious
concern. If he’d been a dog, he would have been licking my
face.
“What happened?” I said wearily, holding my head.
Clash didn’t respond, which wasn’t really all that
surprising.
And then an all-too-familiar voice piped up: “They
took her.”
I moaned, partly from a steady ache in my head and
partly from hearing that annoying gnome again. I looked up and saw
that he was perched on a tree branch overhead.
Now was not the time to argue with him, though. I
pulled myself up, keeping my back against the tree to prevent me
from toppling over since the world was still tilted a bit. “Took
her?” I echoed.
“Knocked her out and carted her off like so much
laundry. It was glorious,” he said with a chortle.
“They took her where?” Immediately, I answered my
own question. “To Reaver. They’re hauling her back to
Reaver.”
“How do you know?”
“Because they didn’t kill her here. If Reaver just
wanted her dead, her corpse would be lying there.”
“They could have dragged her off into the woods and
killed her there.”
“True, but why? What would be the purpose? You
think creatures like them are worried about witnesses? For that
matter, they could have killed me as well. I was helpless. But they
didn’t. And that,” I said, my mind racing, “means only one thing:
Reaver wants me to follow. He wants the both of us. This whole
thing is like one big game to him, and he’s moving us around like
chess pieces.”
“And I suppose you’re too stupid to make the
obvious move.”
“Meaning?”
“Take yourself off the board. He’s expecting you to
go running after her liked a damned fool. Which, of course, you
are, but that doesn’t mean you have to act like one all the time.
Let Reaver have her. It’s perfect.”
“Perfect? How is that perfect?”
The gnome hopped down out of the tree and crouched
in front of me. “Right now,” said the gnome, “he’s not going to do
anything to your overly manly friend. He’s going to wait for you to
come and rescue her so that he can play whatever games he’s
playing. But as days and days pass, he’s going to realize that
you’re not coming. So he’ll just kill the manly woman himself and
be done with her. Then, a month or so later, you come strolling in
like you own the place and demand your brother be released. After
all, she’s dead, isn’t she? You held up your part of the
bargain.”
“But I didn’t kill her!”
“Oh yeah? You got her out of Bowerstone. You
brought her off into the middle of nowhere. Reaver’s hordes would
never have been able to just cart her off so easily if it weren’t
for you. The fact that she didn’t die at your hand doesn’t matter.
You set the stage. That’s what matters. That’s what you say
to Reaver, and that gets him to let your brother go.” Then he added
with a shrug, “Or he just kills you for your arrogance. As opposed
to killing you however he currently has planned. Either way, it all
works out well for me.”
“I guess it does.”
I moved quickly to Clash and vaulted onto his
back.
“You’re going after the manly woman, aren’t
you?”
“Her name’s Page, and yes, I am. Because part of
what you’re saying is absolutely right. She wouldn’t be in this fix
if it weren’t for me, and I’m the one who has to get her out of
it.”
I snapped the reins before the gnome could respond.
Clash wheeled around and let out a defiant whinny as if he were
about to charge into battle. Just before I was able to urge him
forward, there was a soft thud from behind me. I didn’t even have
to turn to see what it was, namely, the gnome landing on the
haunches.
“That anxious to see me die, are you?”
“Always,” said the gnome, sounding remarkably
chipper.
I urged Clash forward, and we pounded down the road
in the direction of Reaver’s mansion. Killing Page hadn’t worked
out the way it was supposed to, so I would have to see how efforts
to keep her alive would go.