Everybody gaped as I unfolded Davey’s note in homeroom. Kids in Washokey would never learn to stare with subtlety.

The news of Mandarin’s disappearance had infiltrated the town by Monday. By Friday, the other students seemed to believe my silence was the indicator of some profound information—even though I’d always been that quiet in class. But if I’d discovered anything these past few weeks, it was that a person’s actions could be interpreted in a number of ways, depending on who was watching. Their viewpoints were simply skewed by their beliefs, their prejudices, and their private desires.

Their personal kaleidoscopes.

I couldn’t judge them, of course. I was the same way.

Not bothering to conceal it, I read Davey’s note: I’m sorry about the phone calls. He’d called several times that week, but I hadn’t gone to the phone.

“That’s okay,” I replied out loud. “Thanks, though.”

He nodded at me, then scribbled in his notebook again. He ripped out the page and handed it to me without folding it.

I just wanted to be sure you’re all right, it read. Are you?

The loudspeaker beeped. I toyed with the piece of petrified wood in my pocket as Mr. Beck began the final announcements of my sophomore year—which was also sort of my freshman year, but who was counting?

“May I have your attention, please,” Mr. Beck said. There was a definite catch in his voice. “Good morning, everyone, on this … Friday, June fifteenth. It’s a fine day, with the temperature in the low eighties. This is your principal, Mr. Beck, on the last day of school. As you all know, commencement will take place on the football field at four. Seniors should be dismissed following homeroom for rehearsal.”

He paused, as if searching for something to say. “I hope you all have a splendid summer vacation.”

As soon as the loudspeaker clicked off, the door to the classroom creaked open. Samantha Dent’s timid face appeared in the gap. Volunteering as an office aide had been her service project.

“Um, excuse me,” she said. “Mr. Beck would like to see Grace in his office.”

I glanced at Ms. Ingle. She stood before an old yellow flag, the one with the coiled snake: Don’t Tread on Me. “Go ahead,” she said.

I dropped my reply to Davey’s note on his desk. Then I squeezed by Alexis. Her hair was pulled back with a headband I remembered from elementary school. For a second, I expected her to smile, or smirk, or even grimace—to acknowledge our history, our years of friendship, inhibited as they might have been. Some demonstration that despite our differences, she cared. But she just looked away.

I hesitated beside Ms. Ingle’s desk. I’d considered what I was about to do a hundred times in the past week, but I hadn’t actually decided until I set my piece of petrified wood in front of her.

“You know my service project didn’t turn out the way I’d planned …,” I began.

Ms. Ingle looked at me quizzically. “Grace, it’s not a problem. You put in far more than ten hours’ effort.”

“I guess. But … I’ve been thinking. I’ve got this whole entire rock collection, just gathering dust in my room. Maybe I could sort them and label them in a display case, or something. I could give it to Mrs. Mack. Or you could keep it in here. Rocks are history too, aren’t they?”

“They sure are,” Ms. Ingle replied.

As I followed Samantha out of the classroom, I pictured Davey blinking at my note. No, I’m not, I’d written in reply. And then, in smaller letters: But I will be.

Samantha and I walked in silence until we reached the office door. Then, all of a sudden, she stopped and turned to me. “I’m sorry,” she said.

“Thanks,” I said. “It’s not what everybody thinks, though. She had a good reason for—”

“Not about Mandarin. About … you know. The way we’ve acted. Me and Paige and Alexis. To tell you the truth, I’m kind of over them. Ever since Alexis lost Miss Teen Bighorn, she won’t stop bitching about it. I mean, who really gives a shit?”

That was the most I’d ever heard Samantha say at once. “I sure don’t,” I replied.

Samantha smiled at my feet. “Hey, so they’ve promoted me to waitress at the restaurant. If you’re looking for a job, we need a hostess. If that’s not too weird.”

Elk heads flashed before my eyes. Weirder than you know.

“Yeah,” I said. “Maybe.”

Samantha headed back down the hall. I heard voices inside Mr. Beck’s office, so I sat in one of the vinyl chairs outside, inspecting the bulletin board in front of me.

It was covered in butcher paper, faded pink. Card stock borders decorated with dancing pencils lined the edges. Like a proud parent, Mr. Beck had stapled up kindergarten artworks, photos of student athletes at play, reports bound by plastic hinges with red A-pluses on the covers. And right at my eye level hung my All-American essay.

I stared at it in wonder.

I recognized the font, the shapes of the paragraphs, as if it had been photographed somewhere inside my brain. Leaning forward, I skimmed it, mouthing the phrases I’d labored to get right. As I read them now, they sounded all wrong.

We’ve got to take that first step off into the future by ourselves.

What had I been thinking?

The door opened, and a twosome of beaming parents stepped out, followed by Mr. Beck. I noticed he had dyed his white roots black, probably for graduation. The cheap pigment had stained his forehead in several places.

“Good morning, Grace,” he said.

“You wanted to talk to me?”

He nodded. “Yes, but I thought instead of talking in the office, we could take a walk. How does that sound?”

It sounded pretty embarrassing, if anybody saw us. But then I glanced again at Mr. Beck’s ridiculous bulletin board: the photographs, the dancing pencils, my essay. And I thought of the time I’d seen him eating alone at the Buffalo Grill. And I decided I was sick of being embarrassed.

“It sounds fine,” I told him. “Just one thing first …”

I reached out and ripped my essay from the wall.

We passed through the empty halls in silence, stopping by an open window that overlooked the playground. I spotted Taffeta, wearing a white sailor dress. She and the other kindergartners were lined up in two rows on the sunny lawn, arms linked.

They were playing Red Rover.

I felt pressure building behind my eyes, so I turned to Mr. Beck.

“Before anything else,” he began, “I was wondering … would you like to talk about Mandarin?”

“With you?”

It took Mr. Beck a moment to regain composure. He smoothed his tie, his ponytail, his mustache. “Yes, yes, I see why you wouldn’t,” he said at last.

“No offense.”

“We do our best, you know,” he said. “But … we just don’t have the resources of a larger, city school. It’s not the first time this has happened.”

“Not the first time what has happened?”

“That a Washokey student’s run away.”

Run away?

Mandarin had run away. I supposed she had—but the words had the wrong connotation. Mr. Beck probably suspected her of fleeing an abusive father, or running off with some man she’d met at the bar. To escape a stifling town. He’d be right about the last part.

“Red Rover, Red Rover! Send Annabelle over!”

I glanced back out the window. Far beyond the kindergartners, the seniors had started to congregate on the football field for graduation rehearsal.

“The other matter I wanted to discuss …” Mr. Beck cleared his throat. “You didn’t send in your paperwork for the leadership conference.”

I bit my lip. Momma had signed the papers the day after my birthday. But instead of sending them in, I’d stashed them between the pages of my pageant album. “How did you know?”

“The conference directors called me yesterday. There was a waiting list to attend the conference, you see. They had to fill your spot with a student from a different school.”

“Oh,” I said. It stung a bit. But I had to admit—“Leadership: the Musical” just wasn’t for me. “You mean Becky Pepper’s not going?”

“Well, Becky Pepper wasn’t the winner.…”

“Red Rover, Red Rover! Send Christopher over!” A round little boy ran at the opposite side but couldn’t break through the other kids’ arms. He latched on to the outermost of their ranks.

“…  and so, the grant’s still yours,” Mr. Beck was saying.

I glanced at him. “The grant?”

“From Kiwanis and 4-H. It was supposed to fund the conference. But since it’s too late for you to attend, we can gift it to you in a savings bond, like your other one. Or maybe they’d let you use the funds for a different trip. It’d have to be educational, of course, to fit the criteria. In the meantime, you might start thinking about where you’d like to go. You’ll need a chaperone, of course. I’m sure Ms. Ingle would be interested.”

Mr. Beck reached out as if to pat me on the back, but wavered. I saved him by catching his hand where it hung in the air and shaking it.

“Are you sure you can’t tell us where Mandarin went?” he asked hopefully.

I shook my head. “I’m sorry.”

The ends of his mustache appeared to droop.

“Red Rover, Red Rover! Send Taffeta over!”

I looked out the window as my sister flung herself into the barricade of children. For a moment I thought she wouldn’t break through, but she did. Cheering, she grabbed the hand of another little girl, and together they ran and rejoined Taffeta’s side.

Maybe Mandarin had never completed a community service project. But she’d definitely left an impression on our town. Some of it good, some of it bad. All of it transcendent. I saw it now, watching the children laugh as they threw themselves at the other side in an attempt to burst through, break free. Nothing could be more Mandarin than that.

“But I can tell you why she left,” I said.

She had asked me to give her a head start before I told anyone. I didn’t know whether she feared somebody tracking her down, or whether she wanted to give her father a chance to fully absorb the note she said she’d taped to the refrigerator.

Or whether it was because she wanted to maintain her image just a few days longer, before everybody knew the real truth—that out of all the crazy places she could have run off to, of all the boys and girls and men with whom she could have gone, of all the infinite reasons to escape Washokey, Mandarin chose to find her mother.