NINETEEN
TARA HAD NEVER WORKED HARDER IN HER LIFE FOR
something she wasn’t getting paid for. The few weeks of preseason
had flown by, and she’d actually been grateful for the games Mick
had out of town. Because when Mick was around she wanted to be with
him. And he wanted to be with her, which admittedly she liked an
awful lot. It kind of reminded her of being a teenager again, this
need to be with someone so much it hurt. But that kind of longing
didn’t lend itself to focusing on the job at hand, so Mick leaving
town for the weekend was timely. It had given her time to work with
the wives, girlfriends, and volunteers who were helping her put
this charity event together.
They had decided on a carnival for the kids,
complete with rides and games. The venue had been selected, the
weather was thankfully going to be perfect, and donations and
volunteers had been pouring in. Amazing what people were willing to
do for both a worthy cause and to be associated with a prominent,
successful football team. Since the last preseason game was
tomorrow, many of the team members would be present. They were
going to sign footballs for the kids, which would bring the media
in for photo opportunities and hopefully bring attention to the
charity.
The past few weeks had given Tara the opportunity
to get to know the women from the team a lot better. She was
quickly becoming friends with the majority of them, which meant if
she and Mick broke up, she was going to miss them all. Then again,
who was to say she couldn’t remain friends with them?
Sue Shore had gone into labor and had her baby last
week. Tara and several of the other team ladies had gone to Sue’s
house a few days after she’d had little Timmy, all nine pounds ten
ounces of him. At twenty-three inches long it was no wonder he’d
been keeping her up all night kicking her. But Sue was thrilled
despite being exhausted after eighteen hours of labor. And the baby
was adorable. Tara had held him for a brief few moments, and those
pangs of female hormones had kicked into overdrive. It had been a
long time since Nathan had been a baby.
“You planning on having any more?” Sue had asked
her.
Tara’s head had shot up. “I’ve never even thought
about it.”
“Well, you know, Mick does love kids.” Marvella,
one of the player’s wives, had given her a knowing smile.
Good Lord. Her and Mick having babies? The thought
had never occurred to her. “Mick and I are just dating.”
“Uh-huh. He seems to like your son.”
“Nathan’s a teenager.”
“So?” Heather Swanson scooped up little Timmy and
sighed. “Mick’s been around all our kids, from infant to high
school age. And he’s great with all sizes. He’s going to be a
wonderful father someday.”
“Yes, I’m sure he will be.”
“And since you’re the only woman he’s ever brought
around ...”
Tara rolled her eyes. “It doesn’t mean he intends
to marry me and have babies with me.”
But the thought lingered all through the week.
Silly thought. Marriage and babies and a family with her and Mick
and Nathan and a child they created together.
Really dumb thought. Mick had his life, which was
football and beautiful young women. Her life was her career and her
son, who was now fifteen. The last thing she wanted was to start
over again. She was thirty years old. In a few short years Nathan
would be off to college, and she’d be free to focus on her
business, unencumbered. She’d sacrificed so much to raise Nathan,
to put herself through school, to climb the ladder, and get her
business off the ground.
She didn’t need a husband, and she sure as hell
didn’t need to start over at ground zero again, saddled with a
child.
A child with Mick’s deep blue eyes and dark hair. A
daughter, maybe. Or another boy. Someone for Mick to watch grow, to
toss a football with.
Good Lord. Put a baby in her arms, and her hormones
got all whacked out. That’s all it was. She and Mick were dating,
and she was suddenly having babies with him?
Right, like that was going to happen. Her baby days
were long over.
Focus, Tara, focus.
With effort, she regrouped and turned her full
attention to the charity event. The rides had all been set up, the
booths were in place, there was plenty of food, and all the players
had arrived. The kids were pouring in, and the media was spread
throughout the fairgrounds. Having the venue in one of the East Bay
cities allowed for easy transportation, the chance for great
attendance, plenty of parking, and great weather.
She’d put all the wives and girlfriends working the
carnival in pink team jerseys today so she’d be able to spot them.
She’d given Nathan a red and white team jersey to wear since Mick
had told her Nathan could hang next to him today, something Nathan
had no problem with for obvious reasons. Nathan would be helping
out the team by running for drinks, pens, opening up boxes of
footballs and whatever else they might need, and assisting the team
staffers. He was ecstatic just to be hanging out with the team
today, so she was sure he’d act the gofer for anything they wanted,
and Tara was happy Mick would be keeping an eye on him so she
wouldn’t have to worry about where he was or what he was doing. One
thing off her list.
Now she could focus on the charity’s kids, who were
so excited about the carnival she could see it on their faces. They
were all troubled youth ranging from elementary school age all the
way to middle school and early high school age, so having a free
day to just have some fun, ride the Tilt-A-Whirl or the Scrambler
or the roller coaster, walk through the fun house, play skee ball
or try to hit the ducks in the shooting booth would be a great way
to decompress from their everyday lives. And they’d have the bonus
of some one-on-one time with the team players. The kids had brought
their parents or foster parents and siblings along, so it wasn’t
long before the fairground was full, plus the charity organizers
and staffers were there, too. Tara was running from activity to
activity to make sure everyone was having a good time.
She stopped off at the players’ booth, which had a
huge line of kids waiting to have their pictures taken and
footballs autographed. Mick was hanging out with some of the
guys.
“Hey,” she said. “Everything going okay?”
He kissed her and put his arm around her. “Going
great here. How about you? You look hot and sweaty.”
She laughed and pushed her hair away from her damp
face. “Busy. Do you all need anything?”
“Quit worrying about us. We have team staffers here
to take care of us. And try to relax. I wandered around a little,
and everything looks perfect.”
She inhaled, let it out. “I’ll relax when it’s
over.” Her phone buzzed. She grabbed it from her pocket, listened,
and laid her hand on Mick’s chest. “Gotta go and take care of
something.”
“Try not to kill yourself over this.”
She laughed and darted off, met up with Roseanne
and a few of the other wives, and they took care of the food
serving issue. Once that was resolved, she wandered through the
fairgrounds to make sure the kids were being entertained. Everyone
seemed happy.
“Miss Lincoln?”
She whirled around, and a microphone was shoved in
her face.
“Alan Terlin, Channel 8 news. We’d like to
interview you for the local broadcast.”
“Oh. You don’t want to interview me. Why don’t you
go talk to the team.”
His lips lifted. “Already did that. They pointed me
in your direction, said you put this event together.”
“I’m just the event planner. You should really talk
to the head of the foundation and the people who work there. They
are the heart and soul behind making sure these kids lead a
balanced life—education, social, and family.” She looked around,
hoping like hell she could find someone from the charity, nearly
crying with relief when she spotted Carmen Sanchez. “Here, let me
get Carmen for you.”
She hurried over to Carmen and dragged the
newspeople to her. Carmen, not a hair out of place despite running
around even more than Tara was, graciously agreed to say a few
words about the foundation and what they offered kids who’d had a
rough start and disadvantages. Tara backed away and let Carmen have
the face time on camera.
“Smooth escape.”
Tara turned and faced Elizabeth, who managed to
look unruffled and cool in her sleeveless top and Capri pants and
kitten heels.
“What? No power suit today?”
“I have causal clothes, Tara.”
“Could have fooled me. I thought you always dressed
like a shark on the attack.” Even in casual attire—which looked
designer and expensive—Liz was still put together impeccably.
“You should have done the interview. It would be
good for the team. For Mick.”
“You do the interview. I’m hot and sweaty and look
like hell. And the foundation can make the team look good.”
“The foundation will make the foundation look
good.”
Tara shook her head. “Not my area. I’ll let you
find someone to make the team look good.”
Liz shrugged her shoulders. “If you insist.”
“I do.”
Glad to be rid of Liz, Tara moved off to the midway
where she found a group of kids trying to best the carnies in games
of water balloon darts, ring toss, and milk bottle throw. She eyed
the vendors carefully, stopping at each one for long enough to be
sure there was a decent percentage of the kids winning. Mr. Stokes
was funding these vendors nicely, and the kids should have a good
chance of winning.
They were. Satisfied, she moved on.
Food was plentiful in the eating area, and there
was enough to drink there as well as at all the drink stops
throughout the fairgrounds. Everything seemed to be under control,
so Tara figured she’d take a minute or two and stop in at the
players’ area, which was still filled to bursting with kids,
players, and media.
Liz was there, giving some face time to reporters.
She had a group of kids hanging with Mick. Tara was about to think
the woman had a nice bone in her body, then thought twice. She was
pushing Mick, making sure Mick looked good. Tara rolled her eyes
and decided to come back later, but then stopped when she realized
that behind Liz were the kids she was talking about while she was
being interviewed, and that Nathan stood next to Mick.
Nathan was being photographed along with several
other kids as Liz gave that interview.
“These kids come from less than positive
backgrounds,” Liz said, motioning behind her, deliberately
inclining her head toward Nathan. “Some have been abused, some have
parents who’ve been involved in drugs. Some live in foster care,
and some are just economically disadvantaged. The foundation and
the team have set up this event to give these kids something
positive in their lives, when they haven’t had many positive things
to look forward to.”
Liz turned to Nathan and motioned him over. Nathan,
obviously not knowing what the hell was going on, grinned back at
Liz and came over. The cameras focused on him.
“Are you having a good time today?” Liz
asked.
Nathan, looking utterly bashful and camera struck,
nodded. “Uh, yeah. Having a great time.”
And then Liz motioned Mick over, and Mick put his
arm around Nathan’s shoulders. The entire thing made Nathan look
like one of the troubled kids, and Mick was offering up the hero’s
helping hand.
Tara’s blood boiled. That fucking bitch. She stood
there, her feet rooted to the asphalt, not knowing what to do.
Ripping Nathan out of there would cause a scene and would only make
matters worse, embarrassing Nathan and herself in the process. She
refused to give Liz the satisfaction. And Mick seemed oblivious to
the entire thing, playing to Nathan and the cameras as if he knew
exactly what was going on.
Maybe he did know what was going on. Or maybe he
just didn’t care.
Surely the man wasn’t that clueless. Had he been in
on it the entire time? He and Liz worked closely together. He knew
every time there was a promo op. Surely Liz had cleared this with
Mick, so he had to have known.
Nausea bubbled up, and she palmed her stomach. The
sun and the knowledge that Mick would use Nathan like that made her
dizzy. She needed to sit down, but she refused to walk away, not
when Nathan was so vulnerable.
Fortunately, the cameras soon moved away, and Tara
could breathe again. She wanted nothing more than to grab her son
and run like hell, but she was responsible for this event, and she
wouldn’t let the foundation down. So she swallowed her anger and
kept her focus for the remainder of the afternoon, making sure the
rest of the event went off without a hitch.
When the last of the kids had piled back into the
buses and everything was wrapped up, she grabbed Nathan.
“We’re leaving.”
Nathan frowned. “What? Why? Mick said we’d go out
to eat.”
“Don’t ask questions. We need to go. Now.”
Mick was next to her in a second. “What’s
wrong?”
She couldn’t even look at him. “I have to go. We
have to go.”
He grasped her arm. “Tara. What’s the
matter?”
She shook her head. “I need to get Nathan out of
here.”
“Is something wrong?”
Her head shot up, and she could barely meet his
gaze. “You know what’s wrong,” she whispered. “How could you do
this?”
His eyes widened. “What the hell are you talking
about?”
She shook her head. “I don’t want to talk about
this.”
She moved away from the crowd of players and wives
and girlfriends, taking Nathan with her. “Mom, what’s the matter
with you? Why are we leaving?”
“We’re done here.” She was done here. She was done
with Mick.
She passed by Elizabeth and saw the look of triumph
on her face.
Yes. Liz had won. Finally. Tara was finished with
Mick. With all of this.
MICK THREW HIS KEYS ON TOP OF THE TABLE NEAR THE
front door, flopped into the chair, and grabbed the remote. He
turned on the TV, needing background noise to drown out his own
thoughts, because all he’d been able to think about for the past
several hours had been Tara.
She’d been upset. Even more than upset. She was mad
as hell. At him. And he had no idea why. He’d tried calling her
cell. She wouldn’t answer, despite repeated attempts.
He drove by her house and rang her bell, but she
wouldn’t answer, even though he knew damn well she was inside.
Short of busting down the door, which he didn’t think was a very
good idea, there wasn’t much he could do.
So now he sat here like a dumb-ass, flipping
through channels and trying to figure out what the fuck he’d done
to make her so mad.
They’d barely even had any time together today.
She’d been busy all day with the event, and she’d done an
incredible job. He’d been so proud of her, and so had Irvin Stokes,
who’d come looking for her. Mick had made up an excuse for her,
saying she was probably wrapping things up. Earlier in the day
she’d been a little harried, but smiling and happy. And then
boom—disaster. But he hadn’t said anything or done anything to make
her mad at him. Not mad enough to storm off without an explanation
or refuse to take his calls or answer the door.
He didn’t get it.
The news was on, and they had a report about the
event. Mick clicked up the volume to hear Liz talking up the
foundation. Mick saw himself, Nathan, and a few other kids behind
Elizabeth while she talked about the kids. He leaned forward when
Liz motioned toward Nathan, looked at him, then described the
problems kids in the foundation had, from abuse to drugs to
everything in between. And then Liz brought Nathan forward, then
Mick.
What. The. Fuck. Liz might as well have hung a sign
on Nathan and used him as a poster child for damaged children. And
there Mick was, smiling and slinging his arm around Nathan, totally
clueless about what Elizabeth had just done.
Son of a bitch. She’d used Nathan. Hell, she’d used
him, too. And Mick would wager a year’s salary that Tara had seen
it and thought he and Liz had cooked it all up as a promotion and
even planned to use Nathan in it.
Fuck! He threw the remote across the room and
stood, shoving his hand through his hair. He knew Liz was a master
manipulator, but he’d never known her to go this far. He never
minded her using him or an actress or model to get a good promo
shot, but a kid? Oh, hell no.
He grabbed his cell phone and dialed Liz’s number.
Even though it was late, he knew she would answer.
“What’s up?”
“Get over here. Now.”
She laughed. “I’m kind of busy here, Mick.”
“I don’t give a shit how busy you are. Get your ass
over here.”
There was a pause. “Here being your place?”
“Yeah.”
“A problem?”
“You have less than an hour.”
“I’ll be right there.”
He continued to pace the living room, then decided
he should fix himself something to drink, realizing he’d really
like a shot of whiskey. His gut churned, and the need for alcohol
made his hands shake.
He clenched his fists and took a deep breath, then
went to fix a glass of iced tea.
He was on his second glass when Elizabeth knocked
at the door. Glass in hand, he went to the door and opened it. She
strolled in, hair pulled up, earrings sparkling in the overhead
light of his living room. She had on some fancy dress and
heels.
“You tore me away from a very important business
dinner, honey. Now what’s wrong?”
“What the hell were you doing at the carnival
today?”
She arched a brow. “I have no idea what you’re
talking about. Care to be more specific?”
He hit play on the news spot he’d recorded. Liz
watched, then turned back to him. “Okay. So?”
“So? Are you kidding me? You used Nathan.”
She shrugged. “He was there. With you. It was
convenient. One kid is just as good as another.”
Mick sucked in a deep breath, never as close to
wanting to punch a woman in the face as he was right then.
“Elizabeth. Listen very closely to me. You hurt Tara. And in doing
so, you hurt Nathan. You put his face erroneously on national
television without her permission and used him to promote me and
the team. She’s furious. At me.”
“So? I’ve been telling you—and her—for months that
it’s never going to work between the two of you. She just doesn’t
get it.” She pointed at the television. “That was great promo. You
with underprivileged kids. Great emotional angle. Come on, Mick.
Awesome bonus points.”
He finally grabbed her arms, wanting to shake her
so badly he had to grit his teeth to keep from doing so. “No, you
don’t get it. She’s important to me. What you think—or want—isn’t.
I love her. And if I lose her over this, you’ll regret it. Do you
understand that, Elizabeth? Do you have any idea how much I hate
you for what you’ve done? Right now you are about two seconds away
from having your ass fired.”
He’d said the last two words loud enough to get her
attention, because her eyes widened. “What?”
“Fucking fix this, Elizabeth, or you’re history.
I’ve had it with you deciding what’s best for me and my career. You
haven’t known what’s best for me for a long time now. If you had
really known what was good for me, you’d have had your goddamn eyes
open over the past couple months and seen what I needed.” He shoved
her away from him. “You want to know what’s best for me? Tara is
best for me. Nathan is best for me. They make me happy, something
you obviously don’t understand, since you don’t have a goddamn
heart.”
She’d gone pale, her normal snobbish bearing
seeming to shrink.
Good. He didn’t give a shit how she felt.
“Get your ass out of my house right now. You have
until tomorrow to figure out a way to fix this massive fuckup, or I
will fire you. Do you understand?”
She nodded, rapidly blinking back tears as she
grabbed her bag and headed for the door. “I got it. I’ll fix this,
Mick. Don’t worry.”
He held the door open for her, and she hurried
through it. He slammed it behind her with so much force the
pictures on the wall rattled.
God, he’d never wanted to hurt someone more than he
wanted to hurt Elizabeth. And he’d never once in his life laid a
hand on a woman. But she’d infuriated him and messed with his life.
And no one did that and got away unscathed.
Now he had to do something to repair the damage
she’d caused.
Considerable damage. Maybe irreparable
damage.