CHAPTER 20
THEY weren’t so lucky.
Garrett sighed when he pulled into his mom and
dad’s driveway to see that the yard resembled a used truck lot. Not
only were Nathan and Joe back, but it appeared they’d brought Sam
and Donovan with them.
He glanced over at Rachel, who sat quiet and pale
in the passenger seat. Her fingers were balled tight in her lap,
and she stared at the front door as if she expected it to explode.
And hell, maybe it would.
After pulling to a stop behind Ethan’s truck,
Garrett cut the engine then reached over to take Rachel’s fist.
Carefully he pried her fingers open until he stroked the length of
her hand reassuringly. He wasn’t even sure she noticed.
“I can turn around and take you back home,” he
offered.
Finally she turned to look at him, her eyes deep
and haunted. “No. I can do this. Maybe I’ll remember
something.”
He had to admire her courage. His family was enough
to make him run screaming like a girl on a good day. Facing them
when they were complete strangers? Brave.
Theatrically he sucked in a breath and made a show
of squaring his shoulders. “Ready?”
A smile wavered on her lips. “Ready.”
He opened his door and walked around as she was
getting out of the truck. He reached for her hand and she tucked it
trustingly into his.
As they neared the door, he paused and squeezed her
fingers. “Just remember they love you.”
She smiled bravely and he opened the door.
Cool air washed over him as he stepped into the
foyer. In the distance he could hear the TV and the murmur of
voices. Everyone was in the living room.
As much as he savored the idea of reintroducing
Rachel to her family, he knew it should be Ethan’s decision. His
brother was going to be pissed. But then Ethan hadn’t been the one
faced with Rachel’s pleading expression. Garrett had never been
able to tell her no, an affliction he was sure Ethan shared.
He stopped in the dining room, just a short
distance away from the steps leading down into the living room.
Rachel bumped against him and he felt her tremble. He squeezed her
hand one more time but kept her solidly behind him as he started
forward again.
At the top of the steps, he stopped again and
softly cleared his throat.
All eyes turned in his direction. Ethan was first
to react. He stood straight up, his face a thundercloud. His mom
cocked an eyebrow and then frowned. He recognized that look. A
reprimand was about to fly. He almost grinned. The woman could make
him feel five years old again with one stare.
Nathan and Joe looked up with only mild interest.
Sam frowned and Donovan just looked. But then that was Van. Calm
and nonjudgmental.
“You’re supposed to be with Rachel,” Ethan
exploded. “Goddamn it.”
“Ethan,” his mom scolded. “Watch your mouth.”
In response, and because at the moment he wanted to
survive with his hide intact, he pulled Rachel out from behind him.
She was stiff as a board, and her eyes looked wild.
The room erupted in chaos. He held up a hand to
shut it down before Rachel bolted.
“Quiet!” he shouted above the din.
Ethan stalked over, his eyes never leaving Rachel.
His worry was evident because he didn’t even threaten to kick
Garrett’s ass. He didn’t even look at Garrett.
“Rachel, baby,” Ethan said softly. “Are you all
right? I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you woke up. I shouldn’t have
left.”
Behind Ethan, Nathan and Joe stood, their gazes
locked on Rachel, utter disbelief etched in their expressions.
Garrett couldn’t blame them. Until he’d actually seen Rachel, he’d
doubted her existence. Stuff like this only happened in the movies.
She’d died—or so they all thought—and now she was back.
His mom held both hands to her mouth, tears flowing
unchecked down her cheeks. Even his big ole burly chested dad
looked pale and shaken.
As was her habit when the family was together,
Rusty sat away, her gaze flickering dispassionately over the
hubbub. Once it rested on Rachel, and her eyes narrowed before she
quickly looked away. Garrett frowned. The last thing Rachel needed
was a lone dissenter. Especially someone who didn’t belong. When
Rusty glanced up at Garrett, he scowled at her, letting the full
force of his disapproval bleed into his expression. Rusty blanched
and looked down at her hands, refusing to pick her head back
up.
“I wanted to come,” Rachel said in a quiet, shaky
voice. “I asked Garrett to bring me. Don’t be angry with
him.”
Ethan touched her cheek. “I’m not angry. Just
worried about you.”
She offered a tremulous smile. Garrett moved slowly
away, leaving her standing there with Ethan. He shot his mom and
dad warning looks, and his mom scowled as if to say she wasn’t an
idiot.
Rachel peeked around Ethan and nervously scanned
the occupants of the room. She recognized Donovan and Sam, of
course. The older couple had to be Ethan’s mom and dad, which left
the other two men to be Nathan and Joe. There was a young girl
sitting away from the rest, and Rachel searched her memory for any
mention of a female member of the Kelly family. But it was all a
blank.
Disappointment surged over her. She didn’t
recognize them. Tears brimmed at her eyelids, but she bit her lip
to keep them at bay. She was damn tired of being so weepy.
“Rachel?”
Ethan’s mom crossed the room to stand beside Ethan.
Rachel swallowed the ache in her throat. She could see the hope in
this woman’s eyes. The love. And Rachel could remember nothing.
Couldn’t conjure the same memory of love and affection.
“My baby,” his mom crooned, and she gently enfolded
Rachel in her embrace.
Rachel gulped in steadying breaths, but God she
wanted to break down and sob like a baby. Was there anything better
than the love of a mother? This wasn’t her mother. She didn’t have
one, but if Ethan and Garrett were to be believed, Marlene Kelly
was as much a mother to her as she was to her own children.
“Thank God you’re home with us,” Marlene murmured
against her hair.
She drew away and then kissed Rachel’s cheek. Her
hand stroked down her hair, and she gave Rachel a watery
smile.
“You’ve monopolized her enough, Marlene. Let her
breathe a minute so I can hug my daughter.”
The gruff voice made her jump, but she immediately
relaxed when she saw Frank Kelly step to Marlene’s side. She smiled
tentatively up at the big man, and to her surprise his face
crumbled and big tears rolled down his wrinkled cheeks.
She stared in shock as he put his arms out to her.
He didn’t move to her as Marlene had done, and maybe he was worried
she’d reject him or was afraid.
As anxious as she was, she wanted to comfort
him.
After only a brief hesitation she walked into his
hug and wrapped her arms around his waist. His admonishment to
Marlene to let her breathe made her smile. He was squeezing her so
tight she could barely pull air into her lungs.
She closed her eyes and inhaled his scent. Old
Spice after-shave. Made her think of grandpas. Leather and the
overwhelming smell of comfort. Home.
“Hey, no hogging.”
Rachel opened her eyes to see a grinning face close
to Frank’s shoulder.
“Which one are you?” she asked.
His teeth flashed in a wider smile. “I’m Joe. The
good-looking one.”
Unable to resist, she smiled back just as Frank
released her. Joe tugged her into his arms and lifted her up.
“Hey, knock it off, dumbass,” Ethan growled.
Joe ignored him and twirled her around. As she
stared into his eyes, a memory as dizzy as he was currently making
her skittered through her mind. Just a brief glance. But it was
Joe, standing nervously in front of her. He was younger. Same short
haircut, but he was in uniform. Army fatigues. Boots.
Her brow furrowed as she sought to hang on. Joe
carefully eased her down, and she blinked as he stared at her in
concern.
“Hey, you okay? Sorry, didn’t mean to get carried
away.”
“You asked me out,” she blurted.
Joe cast a nervous glance over at Ethan then
grinned at her. “Yeah. Well not lately.”
Sam stepped forward, and she willed herself not to
flinch.
“You remember him, Rachel?” Sam asked.
She raised a hand to her brow and pressed over her
right eye, suddenly aware of the slight throb. Ethan’s hand slid
over her shoulders and he massaged, a silent message of support.
Reminding her of his presence. She sank back against him, tired but
unafraid. She may not remember these people, but she couldn’t
refute the love in their eyes.
She stared up at Joe again, searching the vague
images for something that made sense.
“You were standing in front of me. You had your
uniform on. And you were nervous.”
Joe smiled. “Hell yeah. I was asking a gorgeous
woman out.”
She tilted her head. “Did I accept?”
Joe adopted an exaggerated crestfallen expression.
“No. You let me down easy, though.” He clutched his heart and
staggered back a step. “I recovered. Eventually.”
She chuckled at his antics. Then her gaze flittered
to the man she now assumed had to be Nathan. He stood back, a
slight smile curving his lips.
“You don’t look alike,” she said.
“Thank God,” Nathan muttered.
“Yeah, I got all the looks. He got . . . Well he
didn’t get much,” Joe said.
Nathan rolled his eyes then shoved by Joe. “Got a
hug for me?”
She went willingly, her unease gone. His body shook
with emotion, and she realized that despite his and Joe’s
back-and-forth, they were as affected as the rest of the
family.
When he let her go, she stepped back, putting
enough distance between her and the rest so that she could study
their faces.
“I really do have a family,” she said in
wonder.
Pain flashed in Ethan’s eyes. She hadn’t meant to
hurt him. Why had her words hurt him?
“Yes, sweet pea,” Garrett said. “You have a family.
You have all of us. Warts and all.”
Ethan moved to her again. His hand slid over the
side of her neck and then up to cup her jaw. His thumb grazed
restlessly over her cheek, and she tilted her chin so she could
look into his eyes.
“Are you okay, baby?”
Everyone else seemed to disappear. His face lowered
precariously close to hers. He hadn’t kissed her yet. Not as a
husband. He’d been so careful with her. Understanding.
She licked her lips at the same time she realized
she wanted him to kiss her. Here. And then her gaze skated sideways
to his family all standing there. Watching.
She ducked her head and took a step back, Ethan’s
hand falling away. But she reached out to catch it, wanting to
maintain some semblance of contact with him.
He smiled and laced his fingers with hers then
pulled her against his side.
“Are you hungry?” Marlene asked.
Ethan chuckled. “Ma’s answer to everything.
Food.”
Marlene harrumphed, but her eyes twinkled. “You
didn’t turn down a hot meal.”
“I’m no idiot.”
Donovan spoke up. “Hey, if she’s not hungry, I
am.”
Rachel turned in the direction of his voice. He
smiled and nodded, but he kept his distance almost as if he knew
how overwhelmed she was.
“You’re the quiet one, aren’t you?”
Donovan’s eyes widened a little, but his cheeks
colored slightly.
“If you’re asking if I’m an obnoxious loudmouth
like all my other siblings, the answer is no.”
“I danced with you at my wedding,” she said, as the
music danced in her head just as they had done. “I teased you and
said you were the only one of your brothers who hadn’t bruised my
toes.”
His smile lit up his face. “Yeah. I always said
they were uncouth mammoths.”
Laughter rang out over the room, and she realized
that it was a sound she’d heard often in her past. She stared from
face to face, her heart swelling and aching with the irrefutable
truth. She was home. She had family. She was loved.