51. Defeat

The hand taking up the pen had started to tremble.
He drooled.
Only after a 0.8 dose of Veronal did his head have any clarity.
But even then, only for half an hour or an hour.
Day by day he lived in this half-light.
The blade nicked, a slim sword for a stick.

A Fool’s Life, Akutagawa Ryūnosuke, 1927